22.11.08

i'm feeling .. thoughtful .
what i see right now .. is that special keychain .
phrase .. what does my existence meant to people around me ?
the thing that comes to my mind right now .. tomorrow's lunch .

ah , i was reminded of the ugly truth
about the whole fiasco .
i couldnt believe that he actually did that .
i mean , well , they had loads of trust in him .
and they knew him for years already .
2 or 3 years .
it's roughly around the time we met ,
but i think they met him earlier .
i knew he was disappointed in him .
the way he reacted .
heck , even i'm surprised and disappointed .
it's just a small , small thing .
yet he made a big deal out of it .
but then , it's best to leave the victims name out .
i guess most ppl who knew them would be
shocked as well .
i knew he was disappointed , but what about her ?
i think she took it rather lightly ..
or the impact wasnt that deep ?


it actually happened around a few weeks ago , but i was on my trip and
wasnt aware of it .
hmm , this post is gna be filled with loads of 'he' and 'she' .

today she mentioned his name .
and i just shrugged it off .
then i wondered , when ..
nvm , cut it off .

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flu left me !
yays .
but i got cough now .
==''
haihs .
nothing constructive done today .
i wasted one day of my life away .
oh yeah , and how many days did i work ?
i decided to do a day count !
tuesday , wednesday , thursday , friday .
4 .
okays ..
well , today was like , maple and maple and manga the whole day .
oh , and a little of fp/ff/cg .
boring .
if i had to endure two months of this , i'll go mad .
i'm gna look forward to my next day off !
i'm hoping to tell her to make it on saturday .
cuz i wna go up bb and watch a movie with them .
woots (:
sindd said smth about zombies ..
hmmm..

tmr i'll be working full day at cwp .
outside cold storage .
lol . i keep reminding myself of that .
starting at 11 and ending at 10 .
man , that will be tiring ..
especially when i'm closing the store .
zzz .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
remember me ?











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You're drained, once again at , 9:59 PM

21.11.08

i sneezed ,
i sneezed ,
and i sneezed again .

okays . big news today .
regii is sick .
flu , sore throat , cough .
terrible huh ?
i'm waiting for the vomitting part to come .
i tend to vomit when i'm sick , so yeah , stay away from me .
till now , after i popped some pills ,
i only have that awful flu and slight sore throat .
not that bad larh , but the flu is killing me .
i dont like running nose .
it's ...

well , job is actually quite boring .
i dont really do anything ?
just sit there , walk around .
and wait for people to come ?
not to mention cleaning sunglasses ?
god , i wish i'm in school .
and the most tiring part os when i needed to close the store .
used loads of energy ..
hais .
oh , and the store i'm tending is actually those
type of push cart thingy .
the store is easy to locate as well .
just outside cold storage next to the store that promote
the healthy drinks .
you know , the auntie will go around asking people
to try the drink and stuff ?
yeah , i'm next to that store .
hees .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
i'm feeling .. sick right now .
what do i see .. my watch .
my phrase .. 734462 .
(psst , guess the meaning ?)











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You're drained, once again at , 12:38 AM

19.11.08

i'm backk .
woots .
but somehow , i dont really feel as happy as i think i should .
hmm ..
but i know the reasons .
and i bet some people know as well .
there are many .
they can really make me break down .
btu i dont want to break down .
i have to stay strong .
because once the walls comes crashing down ,
it will take a long long time to mend them .
and what i lack right now is time . but yet ,
the most that i have is time .
i contradict myself , yes i do . but the time i'm referring to .
is two completely different matter .
do you understand ?
yes , i do .

i've started working today .
hmm , what i can really say about that job is that
it's really okay .. nice location , a good boss ,
friendly co-workers , and a good pay .
what more can i ask for ?
it's great , fantastic , wonderful .

lets get back to the reasons .
i couldnt get into the comb. i wanted .
it pissed me off .
lets just cut away the vulgarities .
i felt that i dont deserve that comb.
but what i can i do ? nothing .
freaking appeal .
tmr will be out .
damn , if you give me a shit class .
at least i want a betta one .
not the worst .
and i'll make them regret their choice .
the choice they made .
my vengence level is high , so high that it even surprised me .



youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
i'm feeling .. vengeful .
what i see right now is .. my phone .
my phrase .. the web of hatred had started weaving ..











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