30.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .
and i cant help it .
and theres nothing i can do .
to solve my ___ .


TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF AUGUST !
is anyone celebrating ?

ive no idea why i'm making a big deal out of
august .
and tomorrow is just half an hour away .
T_T

oh yea , eehua agreed to watch hyd with me
and well , she didnt even finish the first season .
geez .
anw , wel'll be watching on thurs bah .
if wed mel and jo ann cnnt make it ,
then we watch hyd and wall e on wed .
how do you think of that ?
two movies , one day .
i'm sure you'll like it .
hee .

oh , and i forgotten to put this in the previous post about friday .
niveetha had gotten cuter over the past 2 years !
really .
dont you agree with me , the people that saw her on friday ?
hee .
and i'm sure joyce and i really felt that way .
keke .

hmm , well , thats about it .
now i'm trying my best to dl an album .
argh .
and it doesnt let me dl .
keep sayign that my ip is already downloading .
what crap .
i hate rapid share .
18 minutes more.

counting down the minutes , regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 11:28 PM


youve left me deeply intoxicated .
and i cant forget .
and i wont .
because it had already consumed my heart .


hoho .
i'm posting again .
proving one point , i'm too free for words .
hahaa .

anyways , most likely i wont be going back to cev ler .
alot of people which i know went back to the real maple .
hais .
but nvm .
occasionnally can login there for fun barh .
for the thrill of soa .
damn , my icy is really kinda slow .
one stuck at 11x for ages while the other ,
5x for a long long time .
maybe i should catch up on them .
70 is an easy target to hit .
and i'm sure 120 , with iris' help , it's possible !
jys iris .
hee .

hmm , maybe tues , going ou with yushan
to watch a movie ?
ahh , does holiday week = movie week now ?
next week i'm gna watch 3 movies .
how exciting .
but the huge problem is that , the only movie that i'm
excited for is WALLL E !
and the rest , not really appealing .
the clone wars maybe ?
or 12 lotus ?
i was thinking of watching the meet dave or smth liddat with 6 care .
but i'm not too sure about their choice .
omg . and i just found out that hana yori dango the movie is out next thurs .
zz .
damn .
if i watch it on thurs , then ..
means 4 movies ler .
straight from tues, wed, thurs, and fri .
hahaa .
6 x 4 = 24 .
wow .
ok .
it's like using the chalet money to go for movies..
hmm . acceptable .
hahaa .
now i need to hook up someone to watch hyd with me .
eehua perhaps ?
lol .
i shall go and ask her now .
and i'm not using my own computer , so i need to sms her !

counting the amt of money spent this holiday season ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 8:16 PM


youve left me deeply intoxicated .
but somehow , youve changed .
to be a more irresponsible person .
and my feelings are starting to waver .


August is ending soon ,
and another month is gna commence ,
the cycle never changes .

opps .
i didnt post ytd .
well , thats because i couldnt get the chance to use the computer .
actually , i could use the other computer ,
but i dont really like the keyboard there .

hmm , lets start by summarising ytd .
had the teacher day concert in rs .
some parts well nice , and surprising , its not as boring as i expected it to be .
then , went back to evg .
not much people turn up .
but at least two fifth of the class was there .
and chalet was canceled .
several people couldnt go .
hence reducing the amt of money .
den it resulted in the cancelling of chalet .
well , but to make it up ,
we'll be going out for a movie next friday !
i'm not sure what movie they want to watch ...
hmm ..

thereafter , i came home , took a shower then i smsed humairah .
then i asked rena for bj number .
den sms him oso .
den rena told me that he didnt bring his phone .
then from 3 , it dragged till 4 .
lols .
but in the end , we managed to finish the recordings .
with a lot of swapping of roles .
humairah became the narrator ,
bj the waiter .
and i was voicing as the old man .
lol .
and rena still held on to her position .
the lovely editor .
seriously , she always choose the editing job .
and during the recording , she was like the director , teaching
us how to proj our voice .
wonder if she ever considered taking up that job .
hee .

after lit proj was done , except for rena's part ,
i went for dinner while the rest left .
dinner was yummy .
as usual .
then , the later of the night was spent with me tryign to coax
my mum to let me use the computer but she refused to move from
the seat .
argh .
then , i went to watch the tv .
then sleep .

end of ytd .
hee .

today , i woke up at 10+
ahhh , the good thing about weekends and holidays is that you get to
wake up late .
sometime which i clearly missed .
then , ate the bao , went down with dad and granny
to burn paper .
well , today is the last day of the lunar seventh month ler .
and one impt achievement for myself ,
i learnt how to seperate the papers using the turning method which mum
taught me .
hee .
i finally learnt it after beignf envious of ppl being able to do that for years .
even though i might take a longer time ,
but i know , one day i'll be able to perfect it !

oh my gosh , i saw that buggie again .
the one that created the hive .
hais .
it just doesnt give up ,
does it ?

oh , and one last thing to end my post ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA !

youve changed ,and it's not for the betta ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 12:13 PM

28.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .
and you always will .
no matter how much time had flowed through the hourglass
of hope .
youre etched into my memory of love .

woots .
i'm feeling good now .
lols .
chocolate didnt have the effect of cheering me up .
my family did way betta on that compared to the chocolate .
but i know , the choclate is yelling ' not fair not dair , they're human and we arent '
yea , so that comparison is not valid .
oh , and i just proved another point of mine .
perfect .
the mood swinging part .
hee /
an hourago i was so on the breaking down point .
but now , my spirits is high again !
yays for regii .
(:

oh , and a tiny update on the chalet .
6Carers'06 ~
hee .
so far , the list of peeps staying overnight will be ..
1 . yours truly . hee .
2 . goh ee hua .
3 . chua pei xuan .
4 . sheryl .
5 . qian hui .
6 . hui kiat .
7 . hsien hean .
8 . chang jing .
yeah , thats about it .
then next ... we'll have those that are coming on monday !
9 . ming quan .
10 . joyce .
11 . jana .
12 . jazz .
13 . yuhang .
haha . thats all .
kinda sad .
opps . missed out someone .
14 . kai sing .
hee . ps ya . but she doesnt know .
hahaaa .

oh , and did i mention that there's a girl call eehua that
seemed to know how to read minds ?
becasue everytime i'm feeling great and chirpy she'll
do something to make it comes crashing down .
hee .
but nvm ~ i wont let it stay long .
i'll make my cheerfulness stays .
hahaa .
muackies eehua !

my emotions are hanging on a fragile thread right now .
a tiny gust , a drastic hurricane ,
can change the direction where that thread was swaying to .
it's a delicate time now ~
and i seriously dont consider what i might do when i'm
pissed off .
hee .

oh , and today i saw someone .
not that i dont want to see that someone , but it's just that i'm not prepared ?
lol .
sound like i'm avoiding that someone .
i wont disclose that someone's gender .
it'll make it too easy to guess .
hee .
even if you got it right , i wont tell you that .
and geez , i was like so nervous when i saw that someone .
zz .
and the nervousness is no a good one .
it's like , idk what mighthappen if that someone saw me .
maybe slaughter me or smth liddat ?
lols .
anyway , it's not that special
him .
because whenever i see him ,
i'll feel nervous .
but it's a good kind of nervous .
i just cant stop grinning when i think of him .
but hey , he doesnt know that .
eehua should be thankful that i'm currently typing this part ,
otherwise there would be another explosion again .
anw , i didnt know when i fell for him .
weirdd huh .
but i just cant get over it .
i think i knew him since the start of last year .
hee .
but it couldnt be that early .
hahaa .
now , i'm trying to forget ,
but maybe ,
just a little part of me still hope that he might actually .
like me back ?
lol , i'm now like a lovesick fool .
but hey !
i'm not .

hmm ..
maybe i should go and download more movies to watch .
or re watch red cliff .
its a fantastic movie .
and maybe rewatching would allow me to see soem parts which i missed .
well , postpone that .
i'm gna watch some other movie which i dl .

on saturday , shindy , bear and mouse is gna
watch WALLLLLLL E !
aww . and i wont be joining them .
why ?
one simple reason .
i decided to make time for my friends instead .
lol .
it's not like they're not my friends , but it had been
ages since i last watched movies with eehua and rena .
and i never went out with melissa and jo ann even though we're great buddies .
lol .
i'm weirdd .
but still , shindy is gna leave sg next wednesday , like she had said .
aww . i cant see her for the last time before she's gone for a month .
i'll miss her , definitely .
and lingg said that she wanted to have a gathering at sg worr .
dunno if she can come out anot .
and ive no idea when iris want to meet them . maybe she needs a bit more coaxing .
hahaaa .
and it seemed that it had been a long time since i last communicate with the other members of
xZlaw .
haha .
most frequently contacted de would be
1 . shindy .
2 . bear .
3 . yami .
4 . sim .
5 . joe .
and my frequent is the one month time range de . from 28'07 till today bah .
hahaa .

oh , and we , as in rena , eehua , melissa , jo ann and me ,
will be watching wall e next monday .
any great movie theater to recommand ?
but leave out cwp .
it's too often patronized .
does that word even exist anyway ?
hee .

dangling on a swing admist the clouds ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 6:36 PM


youve left me deeply intoxicated .
and you always will ,
no matter how long the time had past ,
and maybe you had already forgotten me ,
but i will always remember .


i'm changing .
idk if its a good .
or bad thing .
is being silent betta ? or should i
just remain the same way as i am now ?
but i know , i wouldnt want to be silent and quiet .
i cant stand the tension .
but today , strangely , i chose to be quiet .
and i cant think of the reason why .
izzit because i think too much ?
or i'm just changing my character slowly ?
or merely tired ?
idk .
i really dont .
and i'll make sure , i'll find out soon .
i must .
and i will .
definitely .
because i dont wna change for a unvalid reason .

doubtfulness engulfed me today ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 5:48 PM

27.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

TODAY IS A MAGNIFICENT DAY !

is anyone enjoying today as much as me ?
heh .
i'm feeling so high now .
but dummy makes it goes straight down to the bottom again .
seriously .
she affect my mood with her freaking words and i've already told her .
that i'm weirddd .
ok , straight to the point , i'm having my period now .
and yes , eventually ppl will know ,
i'm not swimming tmr and i'm gladd for that !
hee .
ok , happiness is back again .
and finally , today ,
i remembered to refill my correction tape .
anyone noticed that i'm actually using liquid for the past few
days ?
hahaa .

ah , and i just remembered something .
i have yet to reply to regina's email .
okay , i'm promising that i'll reply today .

anw , today i forgot to bring the dnt thingy to school .
how wonderful can i get ?
(:
and ive absolutely nothing to comment on that .
except a sentence .
i'm so blind that i cant see the yellow bag .
it was inside a huge yellow bag and i placed it right next to my bag ,.
so how can i missed it ?
gah .

i just went out and took a bread to eat .
yummy .
and after i took a bite then i realised that it was coffee flavoured .
><
but it's yummy .
like it .
haaha .

during hmt , miss sim gave us a huge chunk of phrases to memorise .
ahh .
it's hellish .
and there'll be a dictation test
after holidays .
if we failed , we're gna die badly .
a retest with higher passing mark .
zz . and the passing mark for one of it is like , 30/44 ?
zzz .

damn , and now ee hua dad cnnt book .
tell ehr go ask ytd ler still duwnan .
come up with some crap excuse say if got enuff money den ask .
fuck .
now her dad cnnt , i need to find someone .
lucky still got my mum .
MUMMY I LOVE YOU ALWAYS !
she's the best !
always there for me , and kind , understanding .
she's really a fantastic mother and taught me well .
hee .

one more day to WALLLLLLLL E !
overwhelming love for mother ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 8:21 PM

26.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .
argh .
today was a hiccup day !
3 times today , that i started hiccuping .
zz .
once in school ,
once at home ,
once at cwp with my mum .
just my luck .
argh .

to perk me up , i kinda found someone that wanted to employ me.
how should i say it ?
hmm .
yea , that shop ,
had a sign that said they are searching for sales assistant .

and dummy eehua just pissed me off .
argh .
oh , and we just found out that we shared the same hatred for the same 'cher .
how uncanny .

oh yea , then i asked that auntie who was tending the store
and then she said that i'm okay for the job wor .
surprising .
hmm , but when she found out that i'm only 14 , she was
dumbfounded .
lol .
but she say , it's possible for me to work , just talk to her boss barh .
plus i find the pay not bad as well .
hee .
what's the pay then ?
it's a secret .
;D

my emotions nowadays are kinda weird .
well , one moment i can be happy but the next i'll be silent .
weirddd .
and i know it too .
but then , when i'm angry .
i can really do reckless stuff .
and hurtful words will come blurting out .
dangerous really .
so when i'm angry , give me a minute or so ,
if possible , maybe with paper and pen or something crushable ?
then i'll be fine after a while .
the start of this week wasnt nice as well .
perhaps thats why , i get annoyed easily .
damn , i just wna kick that side of me , but it just dont go away .
it stays on me .

today , i also discussed the idea of selling stuffs online with iris .
wow . and she was excited about it .
great , increase our closeness (:
maybe next time when my parents go to thailand i could go there and import some
silver stuff over .
the silver chains are cool !
and comes in various design as well .
genuine silver , i tried heating them in a tin
with some msg .
my mum claims that it makes the silver more shiny .
as you know , when we wear them , some dirt will attach itself there .
and indeed , the silver became more shiny .
hee .

2 more days .
emotionally unstable ; regii .











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You're drained, once again at , 6:07 PM

25.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .





WALLLLLLL E !


3 more days .
it's just a mere 3 days and we'll all get to see this cute little robot !
isnt wall E so adorable ?
hee .
i cant wait to watch it and i'm already counting down the days .
-

and something just happened which really pissed me off .
-
that freaking chalet .
the original price for it was $440 !
and qh told me that it was $224 , which was the member price .
dammit .
and i was thinking , with the union card i might be able to reduce it to
$1xx .
arghhh !
wait till she's back and i'll complain .
i cant believe that she actually clicked the wrong button .
==''
i just wna explode now .
damn .
-

drop that subject , regii .
yeah , i wont let it grow on me .
-

today , it's normal .
i couldnt say that i really enjoyed today ,
but i dont really feel that grumpy as well .
things only started to change for the worse when science lessons started .
it was when all the fatigue crept in .
it started attacking my brain , coaxing it to sleep ,
telling it to give in ,
but of course i wont let it win .
i cant sleep during class .
i wont give myself a chance to sleep in class .
dun wna break my clean record , you know .
now that i'm talking about it , it comes back again .
i wish i had slept last night .
instead of spending one mroe hour there , thinking about stuffs .
making me only able to sleep at 12+
and wow .
i woke up ard 530 , and then i go back to bed ,
630 wake up again , and finally started to get ready for school .
i knew that something was not right , because i actually felt energetic this
morning '
and it's a strange occurance .
because regii dont feel energetic in the morning .
so it finally got normal when i started to feel tired in the afternoon .
usually , i'm more filled wiht enegery after school .
-
ah, things are getting weirder .
-
and now , i knew that i am also changing .
as in character .
yea , i may speak up more often now ,
but i also learnt to control my volume .
but still , i can get mad at little things people do .
so there's always a need to let the emotion out !
that's writing / typing etc .
thank god they really helped , especially during arguements between friends .
i dont like people arguing , and when they often argue ,
i really cnnt stand it .
it's not healthy to have arguements that often , but then ,
it's also unhealthy to not have an arguement over a long period of time .
hey rena , dont you think
it's time to get into an arguement ?
we havent argued for quite some time already . and it's killing me .
lols .
otherwise next time we argue , it might get uncontrolable and risky .
hee .
-

oh , and another change is that
i'm starting to do my homework .
isnt that a miracle ?
for someone who always copied last year .
but i'm glad with this change .
and i liked it .
i actually did my sciene homework in class today .
usually , i'll be thinking :
ah , that homework , just copy it tomorrow .
but i've finished it in class today during geo .
-

psst , rena .
this part is especially written for you , my dear .
remember what we talked about on the bus when we're going home ?
kekee .
see , i'm telling ya i'm posting this up .
lets continue , but it'll be a one sided conversation .
i'm waiting for it to come .
it ought to come !
in that case , before my chalet it will finish .
hais .
i envy you ~

regii .
my eventual enemy ; those green haters .











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You're drained, once again at , 2:58 PM

24.8.08

youve left me deeply intoxicated .
i'm starving .
is anyone starving as well ?
hais .
what can i say , i just have no life .
lols, and i'm just like renaaa .
everyday , stay at home .
camp into front of computer .
but at least i did some constructive stuff today .
i finally replied to regina .
><
sorry about replying late lehs .
=/
and well , after replying , i went to play badminton with renaa ,
btu it only lasted around 20min .
LOL!
it's sunny .
makes me sweat until bth .
so it only lasted 20min ,
anyway , i'm not good at badmintion .
lols .
i cant even hit the shuttlecock well .
and then , the last constructive thing for today , so far,
is to go in cev .
finally .
hahaa .
but when i went in , quite a number of people not online .
maybe i should login later .
come to think of it , i havent seen shindy for quite some time ler
and she's going back to her hometown next friday for a month .
T_T .
misses .
the next positive thing to do is to countdown !
hahaa .
iris is gna think that i'm crazzy .
hmm , those that knows iris real identidy , remember not to reveal it !
it's secret between me and you .
;DD
oh , and theres the olympics closing ceremony tonight .
is anyone watching it ?
i'll be watching for sure .
hahaa .
this mornign when i switched on the tv ,
i saw the marathon part .
i wondered how long have they trained to be able to run that far distance .

it's getting dark and chilly again .
it's gna rain .
it seemed that woodlands is always raining .

aww .
iris is back from her kepo ler .
i need to go and clean floor ler .
freezing to death soon ;
regii .











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