24.10.08
no , i wont .
i will use it as i deem fit .
the knowledge is mine , and i may have the madness if i dont use them .
but i dont care. i will use them for the right purposes.
like trying to forget someone .
and someday , i know i will achieve it .
but still , i think that the madness doesnt really matter .
because ,
i dont mind being mad..
lol . watched hsm3 today . and lets just say , i prefer hsm2 . lols . but it's a nice finale for it . 'sighs' today had loads of stuffs to do . well , i had to wake up earlier to hand in the option form . my choices ? c d e . simple . lols . and then went to eehua house . thereafter we go amk hub watch hsm3 . then went back cwp , and camp at lib . had a long session of understanding of each other .oh , and we met yuhang . hahaa . interesting , and i didnt expect to see her there . hmm , she's cute .. lols . btu i'm not targetting her . dont worry yuhang , youre safe from my evil clutches . (:ah , i went home . started typing silvestro 13 . hahaa . and it seemed that rena is losing her interest in the story ?and now the story is only getting betta . hees . looks like she cnnt maintain her interest . and i think , before shooting her i need to think about me . hmm .. i ought to start on my stories ..hais .tmr barh . now damn tired . oh yeah , i finished the story in 4 hours with load of breaks . and then , went to yami de wedding . seemed that loads of people cnnt recieve wor .sindd , joe and tingwei oso nvr go . even sim , today he just patched for yami de wedding , he oso nvr go cuz no invite . hais . pity , and the people inside most from aloha de . =xand now , i'm listening to hsm3 de ost . tiredd . and xfering things into phone . =xthats all for today . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
can i have this dance ?
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 11:16 PM
23.10.08
no , i wont succumb into darkness .
it may be tempting , but i wont allow myself to fall in .
how will i face my family members ?
i cant .
we belong to the light , i cannot fail them .
no , my dear , you're wrong .
darkness isnt always bad .
and you're just using your knowledge . the light refuses them .
so why not offer them to the dark ?
gods , i had an injection just now .
damn , okays , it doesnt really hurt , but i guess ..
i just dont like them .
anw , anyone noticed those green words on top ?
they can be like , a short story which would eb continued
in my posts ,
they will be in green , dont worry about that .
and yeah , i guess ..
the orange italics is the sane and good one , while
the green italics is the more.. crazy one .
that apply from this post onwards .
read them , and ive no idea how they will progress .
dont mind my change of language .
youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 9:16 PM
and the dam burst open ..
i couldnt hide them , i lost my control , my grip of the situation . i lost everything . do you know ? no , you dont . and dont pretend that you know .i had to get away , to be alone . to be vulnerable only when no one is watching me . it had the second time . the second time that they fell ,but for the first time in my life , i understood the meaning they carried . the reason for falling . i know my mistake , and i will not repeat it again . trust me , i only want your trust . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 2:17 PM
22.10.08
thereafter , it implant itself into your mind ,
your brain , your everything .
it slowly spreads it knowledge into your mind .
you will become intelligent ,
but how you will use them is all your decision .
it goes back to your original brain which had not been polluted by the madness .
how will it react to the sudden knowledge of everything ?
sometimes i dont really know whats she's thinking of , that iris . she confuses me . she dont want me to rmb the details about the game . but she's desperately reminding me of it ?wtf . and today , i actually completely forgotten about it . that is , of course , until she jumps in and now i cant forget it ?and what , play alot will see ghost ?wtf . this is all shit . all rubbish . they just want to implant fear in me , and i make sure that they WILL NOT SUCESSSbecause i wont let fear eat away all my logic . yes , i will not let fear win . go hell to that . anw , today , nothing reall constructive , okays basically , none of my days are interesting except during school days ?lol . kinda weird . but next year will be a nice year .i can feel it , pulsing through my veins , the excitement . the anticipation . i never felt like this for school before . for any occasion at all . ( well , there's once but leave that story for another day.. )dont ask how i know , i just do . instincts ? maybe . borrow rena's mp4 today .and yeah , only two pin ?did i use the right term ?no earth wire , and then the pin is slightly spoilt . damn . hope i wont get electrocuted . otheriwse gg liao . lols . lets go for some values i practice today . i may have repeated them in the past , but this is a way to take my minds off all those craps . yes , i admit i get scared rather easily . and somehow , after i got into secondary it became even more easier ?but because of that , i have improved my ability of convincing myself . isnt that good ?well , looks like i gotta improve that skill . further it and make me able to convince people , not just myself ?lols . welcome to my world , and i'll introduce to you . day by day , on how my brain functions . you must be excited (:tmr we'll start on my mentality . that will take a long time . hmm .. each post i'll revealed a little . hahaa . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
psst , next post ; conversing to yourself .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 10:38 PM
the frozen madness is deep inside that cave .
and when you remove it from it's spot ,
it will start to melt ..
and then the madness will be released, plunging right into the
heart
of the nearest person around it .
you've become the madness new victim .
wtf . i made a wrong decision , and there's nothing called
'undo' .
hais .
my lack of judgement these days is really a trouble .
why did it even happen in the first place ?
well , idk . but
i really need to improve my judgement skills .
damn .
youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 5:56 PM
21.10.08
the only difference between me and a lunatic
was that i kept my sanity in check ,
while his was long gone .
ah , i realised that i'm kidna slacking off nowadays .
=x
so well , here's the post for today .
lols .
rs dance fest .
haha a.
it's hilarious .
and cold . yeah , freaking cold .
and rena still felt warm .
wtf . ==''
played the hotel game today .
cleared all stages .
and i dont get the ending ?
but did i end it correctly ?
gosh , idk .
but it's dumb , and the more you play it , the less
scarier it seemed .
hais .
it's a wonder why bear found the game nice .
it's weird , and a little too short for my liking .
hahaaa .
i think i should take a left out of joyce's book
and start saying sea creatures names instead of swearing ?
ah yes , her favourite .
OCTOPUS !
lols .
hmm , thats about all ?
and perhaps i should check the schedule of the movie
which i'm gna watch on friday at vivo .
lol .
youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 8:27 PM
