18.10.08
i'm flying in the air , going past every window in the world .
can you see me ?
i lingered longer outside your window ,
hoping to catch your eye .
woah !another day zoomed by . and one more day , the weekend comes to an end . oh yeah , ytd was a bang !grats to patrick and ally !woots ! i'm gladd that they're finally married . hees . now i got er sao ler . but i prefer calling her ally jie . =x the weding at is furama waterfront , nearby holiday inn . holiday inn is really beautiful . love that buildng . i think i'm a very fortunate girl . i have things that i wanted , not everything i'm not the richest, a good family that loves me loads and i love them back , and good good gan family !i'm lucky , and i'm contended . hees . ah , i'm feeling so motivated now that i actually wanted to go over to rena house and collect our book . damn . and the story !it's progressing real (hear the emphasize?) well , as yours truly is seriously motivated . i'm perked with overflooding energy . you could feel it radianting off me , into the computer . absorbed into this entry , and when you read it , it's reflected to you !now , do you feel it ?the bounderless enegry ? liek you could do anything you want ?it's all because of me !yesh , i know you love me loads . ( okays , i'm sure you're thinking that i'm nuts and off , yeah , you could tell alot from the words i actually type up here . cant you ? )oh gosh , silvestro !silvestro ~ahh~ i'm in bliss right now . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 10:04 PM
16.10.08
another boring day ended .
and i really dont know whats wrong with me ?
hais . life is so boring now .
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today is miss sim last lesson with us .
it's kinda.. depressing to lose her .
she's not dying or whatsoever .
she's just .. not teaching my class anymore .
and at that moment , i felt a pang of sadness .
it's really strange , as i wasnt active at all in her lesson .
come to think of it , was i ever active in any lessons ?
she will be gone ,
not teaching us .
the thrill , the excitement , the tension ,
the everything .
all gone just by a desicion that thay decided .
they dont ever thought much about the students , do they ?
changing teachers whenever they like ?
and i was just getting to like hmt classes .
now i'll have to learn to re like them again .
it's a tough and tedious process .
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maybe i can just give up on you , love .
and everything might look bright ?
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youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 8:52 PM
15.10.08
there are no words . no more..none ..disappointment is the lightest of the words to describe me now .
kinda weird huh .
i want to find a reason to cry , to shift the blame , just anything .
no one could imagine how much my grades affected me .
though on the surface , i had to keep up my facade .
i cannot cry , i cannot appear down .
i have to be normal . it's a little promise i make to myself .
i cannot appear weak .
i can only shed my heavy armours when i'm alone .
when i'm alone..
when no one is watching..
it was like an heavy rock , a boulder on my shouders now .
but i have to carry it .
i brought it upon myself .
yes , i understood that , but i refused to accept it .
reality is harsh indeed , but thats what i really needed to wake up from dreamland .
i must stop , i want to , i need to , and i will .
the results were below expectations .
very below .
nothing is able to max what i wanted .
i have to study , and next year , i will .
i promise myself , i wont let myself down .
whatever that i'm doing now will affect ym life in the future .
i have great dreams, great ambition , and i know .
if i study , if i work hard , if i listen sincerely during lesson , i will be able to achieve them .
though i always take things lightly , you have no idea how seriously i take them .
it might be a litte late now , but i know .
i can patch things up .
next year , yes , next year .
my grades , there will never be a c .
no copying , no slacking during class .
just listen , and pay full attention .
i know i'll have difficulty doing this , but .
adapting , isnt that what i'm good at ? .
hope may be dim , but i will light it up .
youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 3:02 PM
14.10.08
my throat isnt getting any betta . hais . thats kinda sad . joyce got back her results today . wtf . not fair . ==''and i can only get back mine tmr . well , i'm slacking while she's in school , so i shouldnt really complain about that . ahhs . ==''something is really wrong with me today . is my throat the cause of it ?only heaven knows . lols . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
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You're drained, once again at , 11:25 AM
13.10.08
can you hear me out there ?
because you cant , it would be a pity .
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i'm shouting out all my joy to everyone .
and if you can hear it , then you're lucky (:
hehs . i'm recovering . yep , it's great isnt it ? i'm delighted . being sick isnt fun but somehow some ppl enjoyed getting sick ?well , it might enjoyable if it doesnt involve vomitting . yeah , i hated it . but that is the most frequent one i get . ouch . luckily , i dont feel like vomitting now . let me think , on the average i usualyl vomitting at least 10 times per year ?gosh , thats a high number . urgh , cut this topic short . i dont feel good after i recalled back the things i vomitted . well, weekend was fun . if considered being sick for a day fun ?lols . okays , out of the six days break , i'm sick for 2 ?i cant believe it myself . how can i eb so unlucky ?and just now , i thought i lost my favourite braclet . you know , the silver coloured one . with circles on it ?yea , thats the one for you . i meant me . oh , and my aunt came back from taiwan ytd . said she's here for job . and now she's out . currently , she's living in my room . i dont really mind . it's only that i couldnt use my computer as often ?but she'll be back in taiwan on friday . she bought a jacket for me . hees . this aunt is rather nice . come to think of it , only some of my relatives are nasty . on the whole , most are nasty and only certain are nice . yep , such low confidence in my relatives . hees . now i'm drinking tea, sitting in front my computer and lazing around . ah , i love this lifestyle . but having too much of it isnt good . occassionally they will be great . oh , and i forget to tell rena that i finished o9 . woots . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
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You're drained, once again at , 3:35 PM
12.10.08
i'm sick , just managed to on the computer now . finally got the chance to crawl out of the bed . ==''vomit , fever and stomach ache . isnt it just so great ?fever is gone for now . then vomitting , hmm..occasionally still get the feeling . stomach ache is terrible . gotta go back to bed .cya . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 9:09 PM
