22.9.08
i'm a human .
just that i choose to focus on one emotion over the others .
ola . today , i'm kinda moody ?well , thats in the earlier part the day . hmm . not that early . around 12 + ?then , i killed sadness and happiness returned . hee . so . i'm happy now . yeah , it's rare for me to be upset the whole day . or at least , more than 4 hours . (:being naturally cheerful is great . but at least i'm a human , not a happy machine . because there are moments that i'll feel down . it's a good thing actually . hmm . lets blog about ytd . yeah , ytd sucks . why ?because my relatives are over here . yep , i dont fancy my relatives . i'll cut all my ties with them when i have the chance to ,the chance will come when i'm old enough . and when my parents are in heaven . i'm not cursing them . i love my and dad very much . i value them , soemtimes even above my own life . yep , they brought me up well . oh , where did i stop ?ah , severing the ties .yeah , they are completely .. not like me ?i mean , i didnt even speak to my cousins ?wtf . there's nothing to talk about .even when they are like , only less than 20 ?and maybe one or two hit 20 already .==''and i cant believe that i can talk to sindd and bear normally ?even though they are 23 ?and thomas , patrick and hubert whentwo is 30 and above , and one is nearing thirty ?==''damn . it just proves one point . i'm not close with them . i love my gan parents and family at bb more than my blood related relatives . oh , and there are a few of my relatives which i wont sever ties with . cuz they're nice . mainly , my gu ma , third uncle and youngest aunt . yes , i'm basically pin pointing to a aunt . ehhs . i betta go remove my blog link at msn pm .otherwise they check . den i die liao . wait till a few more days , then i put it back there . hmm .. so the topic for today is ..sour relations with relatives ?hee . oh , and patrick's wedding with ally is on 17'10'08 .woots . i cant wait . (:i might even get some nice pics on that day ?lols . and belated birthday to samantha and atika . lets just say i completely forgotten about it until today ?well, last weekend was hectic . youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 3:25 PM