26.9.08
tears started to swell up in my eyes, but they never fell . i let out a groan and her hands went up and slid between my hair.clutching them tightly, i breathed in deeply. "Why do you have to force me?" those words escaped from my mouth , dancing in the air.she just dont understand . i told her not to buy food for me since i already eaten . but she had to buy for me.it was always like this. she always forced me to eat.whenever i go overseas with her without my parents, she had to make surei eat until i get the urge to puke . does she not get it at all, sweetie? i explained to her so many time. i've lost count already. i should have left for bb. in that case , i wont need to suffer . my stomach wont burst due to the overdosage of food. i wanted to swear at her , to tell her to fuck off and stop caring about me . i wanted to , but she was my granny. i cant do that to her . it betrays all my morals that i built all over the years. i know, i understand how you are feeling right now. but you got to understand , she's old. she tend to be forgetful. or she just think that you might be hungry later. like youve said, she's your granny. learn to understand her, regii , and life will be easier . i know at bb , you'll have an easy life because ah e and uncle dont force you to eat . plus the quality of food is definitely betta . hush , alright . just accept it and finish it . you cannot reject it because she will be eating what you rejected . and it will make you look bad . alright , nto only about that , but it will be like , she eat leftover food . it makes her even more , pardon for the word , pathetic . and you know it . so you gotta finish it . maybe you are right , sweetie . yeah , i'll finish that . i promise . and it really doesnt taste nice . =x oh , and thanks to you , i'll never do anything silly . your 'silly' is a wide range . but it's good , i'm glad for it , regii .
What's the feeling bubbling inside you now ?
You're drained, once again at , 4:05 PM
