INTOXICATED ; OBSESSION .

2009-08-05T17:27:00.001+08:00

It’s about time for me to update. Life had been really boring these days. Nothing extraordinary seems to happen. Will there be at least a slight change? Or was the change so small that I missed it?

No, there was a change. I started to dislike Chinese more and more. That could be counted as a change right? Also, I became more committed to my story. This is the first time that I actually finished one part of the story. Now, I’m moving on to part two. I managed to concentrate during math and chemistry classes, but not physics. Short Legs was too boring. And he’s so short. It makes me laugh.

Common Tests are approaching swiftly. I needed to get prepared, but I am not in the exam mood. I don’t know why. But still, I’m aware of the exams date. It’s weird. And strange. And abnormal. Hahaas.

I feel down and moody today. I even feel like a robot. Or maybe some mechanic machine that travels to school and back home. I feel so not alive. Is it my fault that I’m feeling this way? Probably. Well, not entirely mine. The environment must have played a part as well. Yeah, I believe it to be that way.

I typed this out in Microsoft words. Isn’t that amazing? I guess I’ll type every single entry out on Microsoft before ‘Ctrl-C’ and ‘Ctrl-V’ to blogger. It makes everything neater, and clearer?

2009-06-13T21:00:00.002+08:00

I think I'm unique.
No, I'm not arrogant or anything.
I simply feel that I am different.
And of course, in a good way.
I like to praise myself.
I like to do things differently.
I am just different.

And very often, people do not see my difference as a difference, but instead as some form of craziness .
I don't know why I suddenly felt this way.
Is it because everyone like this particular something, I must like it too?
I have considered the possibility, but I ask myself again?
Do I really like it?

I like to break down things.
I like to list them down.
I like to write.

I think that writing is such an amazing invention.
Without pen and paper, I will die.
Life would be boring without them.

I like the smell of newborn babies.
And I'm extremely delighted that Ally gave birth to her baby.
Her baby boy.
And he's adorable to the extreme.
I don't lie about that.
And if you don't believe me, I'll show you the picture.

That's all for now.
A rant about me.

Yes, I love Me.

2009-05-17T19:25:00.002+08:00

He's packed away in a box and what's left of him now is ashes .

I couldnt stop them from streaming from my eyes.
I tried so hard.
But I failed miserably.
The feelings were so overwhelming.
And till now, I dont think I accepted that fact yet.
A part of me hoped that all this is but a reality.
I wished that when I go up, I could still see him.

My vision is getting more blurry now ..

2009-05-15T15:56:00.002+08:00

You know .. Something big happened these past few days ..
My gan-father died .
Yeah, he passed away .
-
Sad would be an understatment , really .
It's a feeling that is undescribable .
it is easy to manifest it .
it grows each day , and i tell myself not to be sad .
i convinced myself that dying may not be the worst thing in life .
especially when i see the illness slowly takign his life away .
it may be have been better that he passed away , so that he do not have to suffer any longer .
what is left is the undefined longing for his presence.
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Death is not the end of life , but the beginning of another .
-
-

Yes, that's what you tell yourself .

But why do the tears still flow ?

2009-05-12T17:44:00.001+08:00

Hang on, Stay strong .

2009-05-10T17:00:00.001+08:00

You want a reason to keep believing..

I don't know if I can make it for SS and Math.

My future is looking bleak.

I saw a touching scene on Sunday.

Coincidentally, it fell on Mother's Day.

There is the seat on the MRT for two people.

I'm sure you know which seat I'm referring to.

Those two seat was left empty.

A mother saw it and urshered her two kids over there to sit down.

One looked around 3, the other around 5 or 6.

As the sat down, the mum stood next to them.

The young kid, the 3 years one, stood up and got his mum to sit there.

The mum sat down, and the young kid sat on her lap.

This is a touching scene.

It's just a simple gesture, but it spoke volumes about values that we have forgotten.

Where is the love in our society?

Where is the grace?

Where are all the good old values?

Think about it.

I wish all mothers a Happy Mother's day.

2009-05-08T20:42:00.002+08:00

I think I'm someone very emotional .
But I always hide my feelings. I feel that they are something private and we should not let other people see it.
I don't like to cry in front of people.
It makes me weak. It makes me feel weak and inferior.
And I assure you, I definitely do not enjoy that feeling.

I cry in private.
I do not want anyone to see me crying, not even my parents or my closest friends.
No, it's a moment that belonged to me.
Just me, alone with my tears.

Don't get the wrong idea. I didn't cry recently .
I just felt a little too emotional .
Almost , but I held it back .

2009-05-01T10:19:00.003+08:00

I think I'm slow .
It's only until yesterday that i realized that Yu Pei and Felix Tan is from Evg Pri.
I'm really slow.
I'm in the same school with them for like , 9 years and I am aware of that fact recently.
One is from Wisdom, the other from Charity .
And strangely, my class always interact with these two classes .
>_>

Alright , I'm super slow.
Thank god I still remember that Jaslyn is from Charity.

2009-04-27T21:42:00.001+08:00

Stay Elwes.
Yeah , my latest character created by me .
I'm gonna make her a success .
There will be no failure.

2009-04-25T22:20:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling very inspired today.
I dont know why. It just came so suddenly.

And i realised something. I've been using the word 'perhaps' so often nowadays .

I wodner sometimes if there's another me in another dimension.
I believed in that.
I believed that our so called dreams is what that happened over there.
Our dreams reflect the things that we did in that dimension.
Maybe there isn't only one .
There might be two , three , four , five .
Heck, maybe a hundred .
But does it matter ?

No it doesnt .
I'm just trying to share my views of life .

Like I've imagine , not many people share my views.
I'm still looking for someone who share my values .

That's all for today .

hugs ,

REGII

2009-04-23T19:32:00.002+08:00

It is time to get started. Time to start working hard.
Everything is approaching soon, and I don't know if I can handle them all at the same time.
Can I?
Do I doubt my ability to grasp those concepts?
I do, sometimes.
My emotions just got better of me.

Maybe today, or tomorrow.

Or even next year.

Who knows?

There is an experiment conducted to test us, the superior race.
We, Humans.
There will be three people required in this experiment.
And You will be in the position of what we called the 'Teacher'.
When there's a teacher in the story, we have to bring in the next essential character.
The student, of course.
The Student was an aged old man with a weak heart.
There is a high chance that he might get a heart attack anytime, I presume.
Student was placed in a chair.
Teacher, in the facing room, stood right in front of a machine.
A Voice tells You that you are the Teacher of the day.
He asked you to read out the questions on the paper in front of you.
You asked your first question.
Who asnwered it? The student.
Student gave you the correct answer and the Voice told you to press the green button.
As the questions goes on, Student took more time to answer them.
Until he reaches a question that he got wrong.
'Press the red button,' the Voice says.
You did he told you to. You were curious as to what the red button meant.

Suddenly, you heard a scream.
No, not just any scream.
It was a scream for help, a plead. And the voice belonged to no other than your 'Student'.
You asked the Voice about it. He did not reply.
The questions got harder and harder. Student got more wrong.
You pressed the red button more often.
You heard those screams. They haunted your ears.
They make you want to reach out to help him.
But You can't. You did not even know where is he.
You stared at the wall in front of you and stumbled onto the chair.
You don't like hearing the screaming.
The Voice spoke up.
"Carry on, carry on. We can't stop."
You took in a breath, stood up and asked your next question.
"Who is Salvador Dali?"
You felt that it was a ridiculous question. You don't even know who is he.
Student croaked, "He... he is a ... writer?"
The Voice sighed, "What a disappointment, Old Man. I thought your memory was better."
He paused, and continued, "Press the red button."

"I... I..." You stuttered.
Should you continue and torture this Old man?

"Press it!" The Voice demanded harshly this time.

"I don't want to," You said softly.

The Voice continued to persuade you, pressure you, coax you into pressing the button.

"This is the last straw. Either you press it and electrocute that man or you die."

You halted.
What will you do now?

2009-04-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

I couldn't get the dream out of my mind .
It was so vivid, so real yet unreal at the same time.
It made me nervous when I thought about it.
Heck, I don't even want to attempt to recount it.

Yet it showed me something .
My parents were important to me, perhaps even more important then myself.
I was thankful that it ended happily.
Or at least, with no death.

Was that a sign ?

Maybe that's the beginning of something huge ..

2009-04-19T13:19:00.002+08:00

Good afternoon People. Thank you for visiting the blog.

I'd like to comment on a phrase that someone said.
' It is impossible for adolescents to return their extra pocket money to their parents. '
why is it not possible ?
I believe that it is possible.
Because I do return my extra pocket money to my parents.
This year , I can swear that i took less than $200 for my daily allowance .
Calculate it yourself .
1 week - $20 , then it's April now . there must be at least 10 week and above.
So what's my point ???
I want to prove that my point is correct and valid because i do it .
i understand the situation of my parents and do my best to help them . '

NEWSTART,NEWPOST.

2009-04-09T17:27:00.003+08:00

HELLO !
It had been ages since I last updated my blog.
I know, it just left its temporary hiatus status.
Awesome huh?

Let me first summarize what happened this week.
Basically, this week went pass rather quickly.
It must be due to the long weekend.
I'm so gonna enjoy myself!

By right, I should be one the bus now, coming back from ICJ.
Well, I have a legitimate reason. I was sick yesterday.
I vomited. Such a common sickness for me nowadays.
The teacher, Mr Lee I think, said that anyone who fell sick within two days of the mass run
need not go for it. So, I skipped it.
Plus, whenever my cough, the left side of my abdomen would twitches painfully.
When I speak, my throat would feel sore.
So, I'm not yet fully recovered, so as I say.
No running for me.
Woots.

Urgh, I dont think I can keep up with a lengthy post.
I just cant make it.

That's all for now.

Welcome back.

2009-02-09T18:41:00.002+08:00

it seems to be an appopriate time to blog now .
so HELLO !
i'm back from my long vacation .
no , actually, it's only two days .
but i'll be going to malaysia for the camp .
on thursday .
quite disappointing .
i was hoping for it to commance during june .
well, too bad then .

i dont feel like doing hmwk today .
btu after reading the inspirational book , i kinda felt guilty for not
doing my best .

i shud be doing my best .
zzz .
well, save that for tomorrow .
oh , and i gotta pack ym bag tomorrow .
wondeerful eh ?
i dont wanna pack today .
lools .
maybe tomorrow .
yeahh .. tomorrow .
and let me search for something later.. hehs .

i guess, a short post today .

/and the angels shall sing' tonight

Regina .

2009-01-23T21:08:00.005+08:00

hullo .
it's me again . finally .
yeah , a frigging update .
hehs .

today was a blast .
as in the CNY celebrations in the school hall .
i mean , heck , everyone is pratically screaming .
uh , cheering is a more polite term .
i cant really stand the noise .
urgh . high noise level .
i'm not really use to it yet .
but i believe i'll manage .
hahas .
then well , after the CNY celebration , left the hall and
went to the canteen to wait for rena .
uh , some minor details insert here .
said some 'hi' to old friends .
and well , another 'hi' to urm , a girl form 35 .
i dont know how to spell her name .
i'll ask her next week i see her .
i know it's not spelt as diana .
it's uh , some other spelling .
but the pronounciation is diana .
loools .
okays , dont mind those crap .
she's really interesting .
i like her .

thereafter , i went to watch Inkheart with rena .
loools . dustfinger and farid is seriously cute .
and yeah , cant forget those two silver tongue
mortimer and meggie . the folchart father and daughter !
woots . they're great .
and the best part of the movie is when mo read the
tornado out . loools .
that's one of my fave scene .
the funny part ? well, when farid climbs up the pipe
and walk the roof without any help .
isnt it so cool to be a servant boy for a gang of thieves and pick
up some useful skills like those ?
oh yeahhh , and dustfinger knows how to control fire !
really liked that power . hahas .
and farid picked it up from him .
damn , wished that i could learn it too .
dragon's breath !

regina .

go on , dont ever stop . there's no time to take a break anymore .

2009-01-09T19:15:00.001+08:00

They share their duties . One shall guard the day , and another be the Night Watcher .

I present to you the beautiful Night Guardian , the Moon .

2009-01-09T18:50:00.002+08:00

So far , everything seemed to be going quite well. Not quite what I've expected. Isn't that just so strange ? I thought that everything would end up so badly, so terribly .

On the general , this year is rather good . Well , except that Physics tend to be a little bit on the boring side as the cher is rather .. well , you know , boring . Rest of the other classes is quite .. how should i put it ? Ineresting , maybe ? Yeah , and comical can be used to describe it too .

Let me bring you to the most interesting event of the day .

'DRUMROLLS PLEASE !'

Yes! The item on the highlight for the week is STICKY STUFFS !

Why? People, basically guys, are very into them today . I dont know why , but I think it's Firas and Atik that started them . Yeah , the first victim on the list today :Priscilla . LOL! 3 notes got into her hair today and she wasn't even aware of it until Humairah told her . Comical , really . 3/9E never lacks the fun .

How do you make them ? First thing first , it should be sticky on one surface . Then , the best shape would be rectangle . You roll it and stick one end of the roll with the other end . Simple , right ? Make it , and paste it on some unsuspecting girls' hair today !

Well , of course , don't forget who was the one that taught you this and don't ever stick them on me !

Second victim ; Simin. Yeah , I told her about those sticky rolls on her head . =X Went back on my pact , but who cares ?

;D

/x\

There are plenty of jokers in my class , then again , I'm in 39 . Can't complain on that . Ah , can't think of what else to type . Main point is ; i don't like being in 39 because of the subject combination , not because of the people . But I accept being in 39 , because no matter how much i wail kick and cry , nothing will change . So why not save my energy , and apply them while studying ?

I'm not online during weekdays because i've barred myself from computers from monday - thursday . Amazing huh , that i could stay off from computer ? Yups , me think so too .

Anyway , Happy New Year !

(I know I'm late . But, so what ? That's me , Regina . )

First post of Year 2009 !

< So Far , So Good ! > REGINA !

Merry X'mas !

2008-12-25T00:48:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas !

oh yeahhh ! it's Christmas !

i bet everyone is excited .

this year , i feel like i'm really celebrating xmas .

hehs .

just got home ard 12 .

uhh , shud be 12.05 barh .

hahaa .

i'm so damn freaking tired .

orchard is TERRIBLE !

it's so crowded , and the peopel spray those white stuff

called SOAP on you !

and i'm unlucky one out the five .

my hair suffered the most .

i got the most of the white-ish stuff in my hair .

bear said it was soap .

dang , tmr i got work de lehs .

and washing my hair required time to dry .

meaning that i'm losing my sleeping time .

hais .

nvm .

i've enjoyed today tremedously .

the best day of december .

you deserved this award !

thanks to ; bear , shindy and the other 3 ppl ( roommates and roommate de kor) .

for everything .

thank you for the memories .

2008-12-06T20:44:00.003+08:00

Hope .

yeah , i've lost it .
until today .
today .
today .
today .
i'll remember today .
because it's the embarkment to the road of diligence .
i will study , i can .
i know i will .

if only i proved to the school that i'm a double science material .
they will allow me to shift back there .
she said it , it had happened before .
otherwise , i'll transfer school .
i will do it .
because comb. science is useless .
to me , to the career that i'm targeting .
as long i study and get my grades up , i know it's possible .
chinese ? well , that will be tough but i'll work on it .
english ? pay more attention . spend more time .
math ? practice , practice and practice .
science ? study . memorise .
hist ? memorise . if i didnt memorise and i could get a avg a1 , then if i memorised ,
i could get the best a1 available .
dnt ? try to enjoy it . and find out what the chers like .

i've studied before . though it was a long time since i last put in
all my effort to study .
i doubt i ever did that .
but i will . this time i will .
she gave me hope . she lit up the torch that burnt out .
if i'm able to transfer into double science , i own her a treat .
any meal she like , i'll treat her .
hope was an element that i lost , but i regained it today .
thanks , ning .

there's no such thing as impossible ; regii .

i'm feeling .. teary .

what comes to my mind right now .. gotta start studying once i get my books .

phrase .. thank you for everything .

The World is just Awesome

2008-11-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

ohmigosh .
amazing .
the truth !
i found it out today .
i'm getting so excited and wanna know more about it !
woots .
lols .
but sadly , i cant really type it out now .
cant let peeps know that i know about it .
i wna meet that girl so much ~

oh , and i'm not a les .
i swear , i see them walking ard holding hands ..
and i feel so , eww .
so i'm not gna be one .
and the lady that lodge a complaint against me .
she's one i think .

damn tireddd .
my legs are gna be dead soon .
help me someone .
anyone .
lols .

transparent ; regii .

i'm feeling .. relieved , excited , everything .

what i see right now .. i want to throw it away soon .

what comes to my mind right now ..

an amazing twist of fate !

2008-11-28T23:12:00.003+08:00

i want ..
to do so many things right now .
to mess your mind .
to meet you .
to pray so badly that someone is able to work on saturday .
to let you know what you had been missing out .

can you hear me ?
no , you cant . i knew it .
my voice couldnt reach anyone at all .
always neglected and forgotten .

-----

woots .
i think everyday , i'm just desperate to close the store .
go home and hug my sweetie .
lools .
life is so boring .
i just wished that something big would pop up
and entertain me .
but then , of course , the price must not be too big .
lols .
bored-ed .

and i wont be a lesbian .
i swear .
i promise .
that's so err , eww .
i saw a few les couples and i got freaked out .
i dont wna be like that .
no way .
hais .
okays , so yeahh .
i think i'm gna give up being a bi soon .
maybe not ?

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i'm feeling .. laughable .

what i see right now .. silver !

what comes into my mind .. aww, isnt that so cute ?

phrase ?

life is awesome !

2008-11-27T15:13:00.002+08:00

thursday thursday !
lols .
it's only thursday . hais .
i've no target to look forward to .
maybe next weekend ?
lools .

today called my boss .
she wanted to talk about the sunglass incident .
thank god i didnt get scolded .
and she said this is not the first time that it happened .
so yays , thanks for the person before me .
otherwise i'll be so nervous .
lols .

well , next weekend i should be able to off one day .
i'm hoping it's on the saturday .
she said she'll cfm with me later .

nothing constructive done in the day till now .
except maybe you could count sleeping till 1 pm as
something amazing ?

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i'm feeling .. cheerful .

what i see right now .. my fingers .

what comes to my mind .. shower shower !

2008-11-26T13:51:00.001+08:00

youre forgiven .

2008-11-25T23:11:00.004+08:00

wtf .
i . am . so . damn . pissed .

who do you think you are ?
you just broke the sunglass and claim that you didnt ?
oh please , i saw you did that .
dont deny your mistake .
no integrity huh ?
you're already above 40 and youre lacking honesty ?
that's really a pity you know .
and then , we placed the sign big big there .

feel free to try but once drop/broken considered sold .

do you not see that ?
do i need to move it right in front of your eyes ?
dammit .
you broke it , you pay for it .
i mean , it's common sense .
even if i break something , i will pay for it .
because i broke it .

fuck you bitch .

i'll be cursing you for a long , long time until i forget about it .
and dont let me see you again .
because there's one thing about me that you ought to know .
i am a vengeful person .
i remember those that did me wrong .
and let me remind you , i will not forget , even if you did .

and a fair warning to those out there .
i can rmb those who set me up when i was young .
that girl , even if she forgotten , i still do rmb .
and that teacher .
what the heck is the problem with reading at swimming pool ?
and her , is doodling a crime ?
and i assure you , i was listening .

those who fall under that catergory ,
i'll get back once i'm given a chance to .
and those 3 peeps , i dont really curse them as badly as i did in the past .
so yeah , my new victim .
that auntie .

oh yeah , i forgot to mention her lesbian partner .

rena and i had already decided some of our characters looks .
hmm , it's quite nice actually .
and tmr i'm going to the library with her .

today , while working , i was constantly talking to myself .
i mean , i knew something was off .
but i didnt expect it to be so big .
gah .
talking to myself made ppl looked at me strangely after work .
but i couldnt care less .
the lady made me too angry .
and i'm nice , i've called you a lady now after that hateful part is gone .

urgh , forget it .
that all for today .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i'm feeling .. pissed .

what i see right now .. jennifer government , a library book that i borrowed, but not read yet .

what comes to my mind right now .. how is he feeling ?

phrase ..

the world is just awesome (:

2008-11-22T21:59:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling .. thoughtful .

what i see right now .. is that special keychain .

phrase .. what does my existence meant to people around me ?

the thing that comes to my mind right now .. tomorrow's lunch .

ah , i was reminded of the ugly truth
about the whole fiasco .
i couldnt believe that he actually did that .
i mean , well , they had loads of trust in him .
and they knew him for years already .
2 or 3 years .
it's roughly around the time we met ,
but i think they met him earlier .
i knew he was disappointed in him .
the way he reacted .
heck , even i'm surprised and disappointed .
it's just a small , small thing .
yet he made a big deal out of it .
but then , it's best to leave the victims name out .
i guess most ppl who knew them would be
shocked as well .
i knew he was disappointed , but what about her ?
i think she took it rather lightly ..
or the impact wasnt that deep ?

it actually happened around a few weeks ago , but i was on my trip and
wasnt aware of it .
hmm , this post is gna be filled with loads of 'he' and 'she' .

today she mentioned his name .
and i just shrugged it off .
then i wondered , when ..
nvm , cut it off .

--

flu left me !
yays .
but i got cough now .
==''
haihs .
nothing constructive done today .
i wasted one day of my life away .
oh yeah , and how many days did i work ?
i decided to do a day count !
tuesday , wednesday , thursday , friday .
4 .
okays ..
well , today was like , maple and maple and manga the whole day .
oh , and a little of fp/ff/cg .
boring .
if i had to endure two months of this , i'll go mad .
i'm gna look forward to my next day off !
i'm hoping to tell her to make it on saturday .
cuz i wna go up bb and watch a movie with them .
woots (:
sindd said smth about zombies ..
hmmm..

tmr i'll be working full day at cwp .
outside cold storage .
lol . i keep reminding myself of that .
starting at 11 and ending at 10 .
man , that will be tiring ..
especially when i'm closing the store .
zzz .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

remember me ?

2008-11-21T00:38:00.002+08:00

i sneezed ,
i sneezed ,
and i sneezed again .

okays . big news today .
regii is sick .
flu , sore throat , cough .
terrible huh ?
i'm waiting for the vomitting part to come .
i tend to vomit when i'm sick , so yeah , stay away from me .
till now , after i popped some pills ,
i only have that awful flu and slight sore throat .
not that bad larh , but the flu is killing me .
i dont like running nose .
it's ...

well , job is actually quite boring .
i dont really do anything ?
just sit there , walk around .
and wait for people to come ?
not to mention cleaning sunglasses ?
god , i wish i'm in school .
and the most tiring part os when i needed to close the store .
used loads of energy ..
hais .
oh , and the store i'm tending is actually those
type of push cart thingy .
the store is easy to locate as well .
just outside cold storage next to the store that promote
the healthy drinks .
you know , the auntie will go around asking people
to try the drink and stuff ?
yeah , i'm next to that store .
hees .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i'm feeling .. sick right now .

what do i see .. my watch .

my phrase .. 734462 .

(psst , guess the meaning ?)

2008-11-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

i'm backk .
woots .
but somehow , i dont really feel as happy as i think i should .
hmm ..
but i know the reasons .
and i bet some people know as well .
there are many .
they can really make me break down .
btu i dont want to break down .
i have to stay strong .
because once the walls comes crashing down ,
it will take a long long time to mend them .
and what i lack right now is time . but yet ,
the most that i have is time .
i contradict myself , yes i do . but the time i'm referring to .
is two completely different matter .
do you understand ?
yes , i do .

i've started working today .
hmm , what i can really say about that job is that
it's really okay .. nice location , a good boss ,
friendly co-workers , and a good pay .
what more can i ask for ?
it's great , fantastic , wonderful .

lets get back to the reasons .
i couldnt get into the comb. i wanted .
it pissed me off .
lets just cut away the vulgarities .
i felt that i dont deserve that comb.
but what i can i do ? nothing .
freaking appeal .
tmr will be out .
damn , if you give me a shit class .
at least i want a betta one .
not the worst .
and i'll make them regret their choice .
the choice they made .
my vengence level is high , so high that it even surprised me .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i'm feeling .. vengeful .

what i see right now is .. my phone .

my phrase .. the web of hatred had started weaving ..

2008-10-28T13:40:00.002+08:00

"Caitlyn, are you alright?" Someone shook my shoulder roughly.
I struggled for a moment before opening them, looking around dazed.
When I finially recognized the person that woke me up, I asked, "Mum, what are you doing here?" She sighed and reminded me that today, I was supposed to meet her at the cafe,
but when I did not turn up she came over to check on me. She brought me to the sofa
and then passed me the letter which I recieved earlier on.
I opened it.

Miss Caitlyn Forest,

We hereby invite you to join us at the Academy of the Gifted where you would be taught
things that normal schools do not offer. Please do confuse the Academy of Gifted with the
Academy of the Gifted. ATG is a school where we teaches our students how to control thier
speical powers like shapeshifting for an example.

You would need to reach the Station 13 on 1st of August to board the train. Station 13 will only transport students going to ATG. Show them the pass that comes along with the letter and you would be able to get on the train.

All necessary equipments would be provided. All you need to bring is some spare clothes and yourself.

Yours truly,
Professor Rene Albert

i think i'm seriously boredd out of my mind .

=='' .

maybe i am after all .

i'm now wasting my time again .

i dont have anything betta to do .

zzz .

and it seemed that rena uploaded 13 ytd .

hais .

kinda sad . i didnt get to upload it myself .

or wait , did i upload it myself ytd ?

arghs , i cant rmb .

==''

youve left me deeply intoxicaed ; regii .

2008-10-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

The sky was just like a reflection of my mood.

It was dark and gloomy . the clouds hung low enough to let you know that it would be

raining soon . From time to time, people would look up from thier job ,

some of them would be praying hard that it doesnt rain, while others would be

smiling up at that sky, thanking it for understanding their feelings right now.

Me? Well, I belonged to the latter. You might ask for the reasons.

and I could jolly well give you the best.

The academy refused my application.

Again.

I dont understand why they refused me.

They accept genius, and clearly I was one of the genius borned into this world.

It wounded my pride. That dumb director of the school.

The Academy of Gifted definately needed someone like me, especially with the

special talents that I'm growing with right now.

But as I was about to complain further, I heard some noise which sounded like a howl..

"If you may, lady, snap out of your trace and take this letter," the wolf said.

The wolf actually spoke? It might surprised me, but I have encountered stranger things.

"Sure, and is that what I think I'm seeing? A letter from AG?"

I could swear that I almost fainted on the spot.

lol .
the previous one is a bit too.. strange .
decided on a much more real one .
of course, the colour changes represent different pov .
like green would be the girl ,
most like i'll name her as..
Caitlyn .
lovely name , dont you think so ? so far..
the short story will progress with each chapter barh .
an idea which i'm trying to implement .
haha .
and then the normal pov , we'll make it this colour !
yeahh . lols .
red .
hahaa .

anw , i'm basically wasting my life away .
seriously , i think i dont really like
holidays .
they take away the best of me .
i have absolutely nothing to do .
i rather go to school now and have some math lessons .
the only thing that perked me up today was
the shower i had during the rain .
oh , and i showered at home dont worry (:
why ?
cuz i bathed in cold water .
it rocks .
i love getting cold ,
and i loved showering in cold water especially when it's cold outside .
weird , i know . but i'm already weird ..
so weird people thinks differently i guess .
no , i'm absolutely positive on it .

uhh , well , thats really the most interesting today .
oh oh !
and the vegeterian store at 768 sells food which tasted
rather good . surprising , yeah , but then , it
is only in the afternoon .
pity .
hmm , and yeah , rena wrote out 14 already .
and 15 , i'll finish it when i get back ,
lols .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-24T23:16:00.002+08:00

no , i wont .

i will use it as i deem fit .

the knowledge is mine , and i may have the madness if i dont use them .

but i dont care. i will use them for the right purposes.

like trying to forget someone .

and someday , i know i will achieve it .

but still , i think that the madness doesnt really matter .

because ,

i dont mind being mad..

lol .
watched hsm3 today .
and lets just say , i prefer hsm2 .
lols . but it's a nice finale for it .

'sighs'
today had loads of stuffs to do .
well , i had to wake up earlier to
hand in the option form .
my choices ? c d e .
simple .
lols . and then went to eehua house .
thereafter we go amk hub watch hsm3 .
then went back cwp , and camp at lib .
had a long session of understanding of each other .
oh , and we met yuhang .
hahaa . interesting , and i didnt expect to see her there .
hmm , she's cute ..
lols . btu i'm not targetting her .
dont worry yuhang , youre safe
from my evil clutches .
(:

ah , i went home .
started typing silvestro 13 .
hahaa .
and it seemed that rena is losing her interest in the story ?
and now the story is only getting betta .
hees .
looks like she cnnt maintain her interest .
and i think , before shooting her i need to think about me .
hmm .. i ought to start on my stories ..
hais .
tmr barh .
now damn tired .
oh yeah , i finished the story in 4 hours with load of breaks .

and then , went to yami de wedding .
seemed that loads of people cnnt recieve wor .
sindd , joe and tingwei oso nvr go .
even sim , today he just patched for yami de wedding ,
he oso nvr go cuz no invite .
hais .
pity , and the people inside most from aloha de .
=x

and now , i'm listening to hsm3 de ost .
tiredd . and xfering things into phone .
=x

thats all for today .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

can i have this dance ?

2008-10-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

no , i wont succumb into darkness .

it may be tempting , but i wont allow myself to fall in .

how will i face my family members ?

i cant .

we belong to the light , i cannot fail them .

no , my dear , you're wrong .

darkness isnt always bad .

and you're just using your knowledge . the light refuses them .

so why not offer them to the dark ?

gods , i had an injection just now .
damn , okays , it doesnt really hurt , but i guess ..
i just dont like them .

anw , anyone noticed those green words on top ?
they can be like , a short story which would eb continued
in my posts ,
they will be in green , dont worry about that .
and yeah , i guess ..
the orange italics is the sane and good one , while
the green italics is the more.. crazy one .

that apply from this post onwards .
read them , and ive no idea how they will progress .
dont mind my change of language .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-23T14:17:00.002+08:00

and the dam burst open ..

i couldnt hide them , i lost my control , my grip of the situation .
i lost everything .
do you know ?
no , you dont . and dont pretend that you know .
i had to get away , to be alone .
to be vulnerable only when no one is watching me .
it had the second time .
the second time that they fell ,
but for the first time in my life , i understood the meaning they carried .
the reason for falling .
i know my mistake , and i will not repeat it again .
trust me , i only want your trust .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-22T22:38:00.002+08:00

thereafter , it implant itself into your mind ,

your brain , your everything .

it slowly spreads it knowledge into your mind .

you will become intelligent ,

but how you will use them is all your decision .

it goes back to your original brain which had not been polluted by the madness .

how will it react to the sudden knowledge of everything ?

sometimes i dont really know whats she's thinking of ,
that iris .
she confuses me .
she dont want me to rmb the details about the game .
but she's desperately reminding me of it ?
wtf .
and today , i actually completely forgotten about it .
that is , of course , until she jumps in and now
i cant forget it ?
and what , play alot will see ghost ?
wtf .
this is all shit .
all rubbish .
they just want to implant fear in me , and i make sure that they
WILL NOT SUCESSS
because i wont let fear eat away all my logic .
yes , i will not let fear win .
go hell to that .

anw , today , nothing reall constructive ,
okays basically , none of my days are interesting
except during school days ?
lol .
kinda weird .
but next year will be a nice year .
i can feel it , pulsing through my veins , the excitement .
the anticipation . i never felt like this for school before .
for any occasion at all .
( well , there's once but leave that story for another day.. )
dont ask how i know , i just do .
instincts ? maybe .

borrow rena's mp4 today .
and yeah , only two pin ?
did i use the right term ?
no earth wire , and then the pin is slightly spoilt .
damn . hope i wont get electrocuted .
otheriwse gg liao .
lols .

lets go for some values i practice today .
i may have repeated them in the past , but this is a way to
take my minds off all those craps .
yes , i admit i get scared rather easily .
and somehow , after i got into secondary it became even more easier ?
but because of that , i have improved my ability of convincing myself .
isnt that good ?
well , looks like i gotta improve that skill .
further it and make me able to
convince people , not just myself ?
lols .
welcome to my world , and i'll introduce to you .
day by day , on how my brain functions .
you must be excited (:
tmr we'll start on my mentality .
that will take a long time .
hmm .. each post i'll revealed a little .
hahaa .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

psst , next post ; conversing to yourself .

2008-10-22T17:56:00.001+08:00

the frozen madness is deep inside that cave .
and when you remove it from it's spot ,
it will start to melt ..
and then the madness will be released, plunging right into the
heart
of the nearest person around it .
you've become the madness new victim .

wtf . i made a wrong decision , and there's nothing called
'undo' .
hais .
my lack of judgement these days is really a trouble .
why did it even happen in the first place ?
well , idk . but
i really need to improve my judgement skills .
damn .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

the frozen madness deep ..

2008-10-21T20:27:00.003+08:00

the only difference between me and a lunatic

was that i kept my sanity in check ,

while his was long gone .

ah , i realised that i'm kidna slacking off nowadays .
=x
so well , here's the post for today .
lols .
rs dance fest .
haha a.
it's hilarious .
and cold . yeah , freaking cold .
and rena still felt warm .
wtf . ==''

played the hotel game today .
cleared all stages .
and i dont get the ending ?
but did i end it correctly ?
gosh , idk .
but it's dumb , and the more you play it , the less
scarier it seemed .
hais .
it's a wonder why bear found the game nice .
it's weird , and a little too short for my liking .
hahaaa .

i think i should take a left out of joyce's book
and start saying sea creatures names instead of swearing ?
ah yes , her favourite .
OCTOPUS !
lols .

hmm , thats about all ?
and perhaps i should check the schedule of the movie
which i'm gna watch on friday at vivo .
lol .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

i'm flying in the air , going past every window in the world .

can you see me ?

i lingered longer outside your window ,

hoping to catch your eye .

woah !
another day zoomed by .
and one more day , the weekend comes to an end .
oh yeah , ytd was a bang !
grats to patrick and ally !
woots !
i'm gladd that they're finally married .
hees .
now i got er sao ler . but i prefer calling her ally jie .
=x

the weding at is
furama waterfront , nearby holiday inn .
holiday inn is really beautiful .
love that buildng .

i think i'm a very fortunate girl .
i have things that i wanted , not everything i'm not the richest,
a good family that loves me loads and i love them back ,
and good good gan family !
i'm lucky , and i'm contended .
hees .

ah , i'm feeling so motivated now that i actually wanted to go over
to rena house and collect our book . damn .
and the story !
it's progressing real (hear the emphasize?) well ,
as yours truly is seriously motivated .
i'm perked with overflooding energy .
you could feel it radianting off me , into the computer .
absorbed into this entry , and when you read it , it's reflected to you !
now , do you feel it ?
the bounderless enegry ?
liek you could do anything you want ?
it's all because of me !
yesh , i know you love me loads .

( okays , i'm sure you're thinking that i'm nuts and off , yeah , you could tell alot from the words
i actually type up here . cant you ? )

oh gosh , silvestro !
silvestro ~
ahh~ i'm in bliss right now .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-16T20:52:00.005+08:00

another boring day ended .

and i really dont know whats wrong with me ?

hais . life is so boring now .

today is miss sim last lesson with us .

it's kinda.. depressing to lose her .

she's not dying or whatsoever .

she's just .. not teaching my class anymore .

and at that moment , i felt a pang of sadness .

it's really strange , as i wasnt active at all in her lesson .

come to think of it , was i ever active in any lessons ?

she will be gone ,

not teaching us .

the thrill , the excitement , the tension ,

the everything .

all gone just by a desicion that thay decided .

they dont ever thought much about the students , do they ?

changing teachers whenever they like ?

and i was just getting to like hmt classes .

now i'll have to learn to re like them again .

it's a tough and tedious process .

maybe i can just give up on you , love .

and everything might look bright ?

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-15T15:02:00.002+08:00

there are no words .
no more..
none ..

disappointment is the lightest of the words to describe me now .

kinda weird huh .

i want to find a reason to cry , to shift the blame , just anything .

no one could imagine how much my grades affected me .

though on the surface , i had to keep up my facade .

i cannot cry , i cannot appear down .

i have to be normal . it's a little promise i make to myself .

i cannot appear weak .

i can only shed my heavy armours when i'm alone .

when i'm alone..

when no one is watching..

it was like an heavy rock , a boulder on my shouders now .

but i have to carry it .

i brought it upon myself .

yes , i understood that , but i refused to accept it .

reality is harsh indeed , but thats what i really needed to wake up from dreamland .

i must stop , i want to , i need to , and i will .

the results were below expectations .

very below .

nothing is able to max what i wanted .

i have to study , and next year , i will .

i promise myself , i wont let myself down .

whatever that i'm doing now will affect ym life in the future .

i have great dreams, great ambition , and i know .

if i study , if i work hard , if i listen sincerely during lesson , i will be able to achieve them .

though i always take things lightly , you have no idea how seriously i take them .

it might be a litte late now , but i know .

i can patch things up .

next year , yes , next year .

my grades , there will never be a c .

no copying , no slacking during class .

just listen , and pay full attention .

i know i'll have difficulty doing this , but .

adapting , isnt that what i'm good at ? .

hope may be dim , but i will light it up .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-14T11:25:00.002+08:00

my throat isnt getting any betta .
hais . thats kinda sad .

joyce got back her results today .
wtf . not fair . ==''
and i can only get back mine tmr .
well , i'm slacking while she's in school ,
so i shouldnt really complain about that .
ahhs .
==''
something is really wrong with me today .
is my throat the cause of it ?
only heaven knows .
lols .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-13T15:35:00.002+08:00

can you hear me out there ?

because you cant , it would be a pity .

i'm shouting out all my joy to everyone .

and if you can hear it , then you're lucky (:

hehs . i'm recovering .
yep , it's great isnt it ?
i'm delighted .
being sick isnt fun but somehow some ppl enjoyed getting sick ?
well , it might enjoyable if it doesnt involve vomitting .
yeah , i hated it . but that is the most frequent one i get .
ouch .
luckily , i dont feel like vomitting now .
let me think , on the average i usualyl vomitting at least 10 times per year ?
gosh , thats a high number .
urgh , cut this topic short .
i dont feel good after i recalled back the things i vomitted .

well, weekend was fun .
if considered being sick for a day fun ?
lols .
okays , out of the six days break , i'm sick for 2 ?
i cant believe it myself .
how can i eb so unlucky ?
and just now , i thought i lost my favourite braclet .
you know , the silver coloured one .
with circles on it ?
yea , thats the one for you .
i meant me .

oh , and my aunt came back from taiwan ytd .
said she's here for job .
and now she's out . currently , she's living in my room .
i dont really mind .
it's only that i couldnt use my computer as often ?
but she'll be back in taiwan on friday .
she bought a jacket for me .
hees .
this aunt is rather nice .
come to think of it , only some of my relatives are nasty .
on the whole , most are nasty and only certain are nice .
yep , such low confidence in my relatives .
hees .

now i'm drinking tea, sitting in front my computer and lazing around .
ah , i love this lifestyle .
but having too much of it isnt good .
occassionally they will be great .

oh , and i forget to tell rena that i finished o9 .
woots .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

i'm sick ,
just managed to on the computer now .
finally got the chance to crawl out of the bed .
==''
vomit , fever and stomach ache .
isnt it just so great ?
fever is gone for now .
then vomitting , hmm..
occasionally still get the feeling .
stomach ache is terrible .
gotta go back to bed .
cya .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-08T19:13:00.003+08:00

you dont even need to try ,

because you already caught me .

OHMIGOSH .
finally !
the exams are over !
anyone up for some champagne ?
okays , scratch that . i couldnt get it anw .
lets go for some classical green tea .
get the ones from japan if you can , i love theirs .
and if you dont know , i'm a little bit crazy about green tea ..
if you could call buying choco of green tea flavour ..
and snacks of that heavenly flavour..
obssess over it until ppl bth..
thats how sick i can get over green tea .

oh , and currently , shurong and i were talking about tasting me ?
idk why and how she got that idea .
because i told her if i dont upload the story , rena will chop me up .
and then she say , 'i wont want to eat regii chop anw.'
ouch , that hurts . can you hear my heart breaking now ?
i dont taste bad , shurong dearie . i taste yummy de (:
hahaa .
then i tell her the easiest way to taste me is
to kiss me .
muackies shurong !
find me anytime and i'll be ready for you .
i know you get what i meant , girl .
'winks'

oh , and i do enjoy the lil heart to heart talk today , shurong . ;D

okays , back to the exams .
man , i cant believe it ,
secondary two life i gna be over soon .
and i'm feeling kinda sad .
really .
even though i'm not really close with them .
hais .
jys lo . next year jiu different class ler .
and i know with my sucky grades , i cant possibly get into
triple science .
i can only hope for double .
i'm so going for chem and bio .
no physics .
and my aesthetics , i'll take art if i'm not part of the group
eligible for POA .
i just have to pray now ?
lol .
heck care . =='' .
life's gna be fun !

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

i want to know what happened .
the situation seemed to have worsen over the days .
though i might not be around you ,
heck , i dont even contact you .
i know something is amiss .
but it's all just a 'want' .
never a 'need' .
i explained to myself about the differences , but my heart rejected it .
it heads for you , running in your direction .
never stopping until it reaches .
YOU .

2008-10-07T17:33:00.003+08:00

only if you belonged to me .

hais .
i'm already in a exam in over mood .
i'm slacking the whole day today .
wtf .
l8r at night really gotta chiong and memorize them ler .
if not tmr gg liao .

uhs , the math paper today was okays ?
yeah , i guess so .
and the paper 2 is tougher .
damn , if i could pass paper 2 i would be lucky .
nothing much to comment actually .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-06T14:45:00.003+08:00

let go .

math mah math math .
it will be the death of me .
for once , i'm actually studying for it .
and i'm doing notes ?
okays , maybe i might do some for hist .
but math is like the subject which i want to score well ?
gah .

didnt update the last few days as i couldnt use my computer .
iris was snatching it from me .
geez .
sligth update .

saturday .
a rundown on it .
went to amk hub , ate lunch at the s11 which was rather deep inside ?
then , watched movie .
then went home for dinner .
saw sindd new roommate .
she seem nice .
hees .
and i noticed something .
bear is really tall .
lol .
and i find myself shrinking in height .
damn .
okays , back to dinner .
had it , went home .
end of day .

sunday .
went to bugis .
bought my precious pen .
came home .
then logged in maple .
found out that yami and cliff was back in xZlaw .
lols .
surprising .
but yami refused to tell me who added them back .
==''
then , went off to catch soem tv .
bedtime .

yami is being so secretive nowadays .
f5 him .
he didnt even tell me that he cfm coming sg ler .
i heard it from iris
si yami .
then today , had a nice conversation with him on msn .
lol .
we dont communicate in maple , but on msn .
strange .
because when he's online , he got so many other friends to entertain .
lol .
oh , and he told me that he's getting married this friday 9pm .
wtf .
and i'm planning to go bb de .
hais .
postpone it then .
lols .
then saturday cut hair , sunday noon jiu take bus home lo .
thomas went macau .
envy ~ .
but nvm , year end i got trip oso .
only unconfirmed . hahaa

back to my math .
math math math .
need to make some notes for it ler .
i can do it !
jys regii (:

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-04T10:41:00.002+08:00

i could fly right now .

this morning , i woke up at 9 .
a miracle , i know . because i tend to sleep in on weekends .
hahaas .
but the alarm woke me up .
and it's my parents' alarm .
==''
so i woke up , showered and now , i'm here blogging .
lols .

just asked thomas some stuffs , and my parents will be
meeting him at valley point for their policy stuffs .
it's strange .
if you told me 2 years ago that da kor would be working
for manulife , i'ld say youre nuts .
lols .
but it happened now .
well , he enjoys his current work , so thats good .
(:

i'll be watching eagle eye later ~
i'm hoping that it would be nice .
and i think i need to bring a new packet of eclispe go .
cuz i'll be popping sweets throughout the movie .
maybe not every second , but i dont think my current box
with only 5 sweets , can last me long .
haha .
and the xiang bin betta be a small packet one .
otherwise i cant put it inside my bag den gg liao .
i cant possibly be swinging it inside the cinema .
they wouldnt allow it .

i'm feeling pretty hyper now .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-03T21:04:00.002+08:00

you're falling deeper into the pool of madness .

and you can leave anytime .

but you never wanted to leave .

eclipse rocks !
love that sweet loads .
i like both the blue box and the green box , i dont
usually consume it so i'm not addicted to it .
haha .
and iris loves it too ~

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-03T16:24:00.003+08:00

i trembled when i'm afraid .

i smile when i'm happy .

i cry when i'm upset .

i love when it comes to you .

hehs . just showered .
and i'm feeling fresh now . (:
it's nice , and i'm kinda tired .
even the cold water cant wake me .
ahh . it's darkk now .
=x
i dont really have much to blog about .
except that i'm checking out the different music now .

hmm.. i'm lazyy already .
==''
later then post a more lengthy one barh .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-02T15:54:00.002+08:00

what gives you the right to

classify me

the moemnt you see me ?

appearance deceives , and i'm sure you know it damn well .

dont stereotype me .

ola .
hees , i'm in a ' i am overly cheerful for the occasion ' mood right now .
kinda strange .
science is tomorrow and i'm so excited for it ?
the only thing i'm dreading is math .
miss lim is gna test all of us tmr .

and i decided , i'll just keep on failing the 1st , 2nd and 3rd test .
might pass the 4th or 5th .
lols .
and to think just now during dnt , i was revising math ?
instead of science .
the exam is tomorrow , mind you .
yeah , i'm abnormal . and i dont have confidence in my science ?
i'm such a wonderful girl .
;D
but i think the math test tomorrow , i cant possibly fail till the 10th paper right.. ?
...

alrights , moving on to hmt !
i studied science !
woots .
rena revised with me the electricity .
okays , let me recap .
resistance= current/voltage
then total resistance is ...
1/r = 1/3 + 1/4 = 1/7omh .
issit ?
oh oh ! then rena just told me on msn .
if the answer is 1/r=1/7..
then it becomes r=7omh !
woots .
i think , i might be able to handle electricity this time .
and the other one , with kilowatt .
hmmm..
i cant rmb .
check tb ..
electrical enegry used (kwh) = power (kw) x time (h)
cost of electricity = electrical enegry used x cost per unit ..
hmmm.. nice .
emf is the amt of electrical force supplied to each unit of an electric charge
well , since the formulas are done , i guess later ic an focus on the other chapters .
thank god only half of my brain was dreaming during science class .
otherwise i'll be gone .

i dont understand that .
it made me curious , worried , excited , nervous .
the words you wrote .
i wish i can speak to you , let you know that i cared for you .
but then , i lack the courage .
but then , you , the special one , i want you to know .
i'll be waiting .
and caring for you .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-10-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

left, right ,

left, left

right .

lola .
lols . i'm feeling rather high now .
reason ?
i really dont know .
maybe it's exam period ? i tend to get high whenever they are
round the corner .
strange , i know .
but that's me .
and you gotta accept it .

today , i didnt really do much .
a little bit of revision .
revised some science chapter .
tmr will be full of more chionging .
lols .
science wb and practical .
need to work on those two .
and if possible , some history and geo ?
nah , thats only if i 'm confident with my science .
i cant really rmb much .
but i cleared the atoms one , then the one after it.
trasnport in living things ?
some digestion
and err , chemical changes .
yeah . ==''
and my math , untouched .
high chance that i'll becopying them during recess .
hmm , i might even skip recess .
maybe . but the chances are low .

today , i spent loads of time pressing the letter l .
because i was helping iris in her maple .
hs-ing her .
many people logged in after 7 .
haha .
jazz logged in .
it's like , the most relaxing day for her for the past two months .
oh gosh .
she studied .
really studied for her psle .
==''
and found out that she studies in scgs .
and her targets are like , rgs , nanyang , rv , cresent girls .
you get the idea .
she's really .. amazing .
i didnt study that much even when i'm having my psle .
i was slacking .
thats why i ended in rs instead of my dream school ,
anderson sec .
==''
disappointed really .
and es logged in today .
what is it with people ?
and sindd came back to sg .

WELCOME BACK SINDD !

muackies .

and i'm meeting her on fridya to get my xiang bin .
lols .
and she didmt buy my yu zi .
pomelo .
T_T
iris said it was yummy , the ones from her ht .
=x
pity that i cant eat them .

gotta run for my shower .
it's getting late already .
later .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-09-29T17:55:00.002+08:00

あなたのそばにいたくて長距離を走っている夜の高速　

星のトンネルくぐればたどり着くあなたの腕の中が　

my final destination

Driving forward to my final destination

No matter how far or how long, whether it’s right or wrong

I belong in your arms

hola .
woots . i'm so happy now .
reason ; none .
lols . i'm getting weirder nowadays .
i'm so off . laughing for no apparent reasons .
and speaking to myself .
yeah , even as i type, i actually said those
words out and like , i answer them ?
ahh . isnt really healthy , is it ?

hairspray sucks .
really .
i mean , well , too much singing .
it's the movie , not the product .
and the ending scene , eww .
everyone in the class , gasped?
ok , i was shocked .
haaha .

today hmt was , uhhs , boring ?
i almost fell asleep .
if not for the shakesphere book that i was reading .
hamlet .
hahaa .

okays , iris needed to use my computer because
the light outside was dull , so she needed
to use mine .
lols .
thats all .
short and sweet .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

2008-09-28T19:31:00.003+08:00

"do you regret it?"

"no, never."

hola .

i tink i know whats a headache .
cuz i think i'm currently experiencing one .
;x
sadd huh , i'm 14 , but idk whats a headache
until today .
worth commerating .
i logged in just to type a little bit of chapter 9 .
i guess i should type what i've written .
and leave the rest when i'm free .

oh , and just now during dinner i saw two people .
vanessa ; chao cheng .
his family is like , just next to the table my granny chose .
dang , i didnt even noticed him until i sat down and turned over .
i was like , wtf .
==''
but i was really down at that time .
so yeah , concentrated on my food .
then , while i was walking towards the food store , i saw
vanessa tgt with her family .
ahh , they look so happy and enjoying their food .
lols .
and i think her sister sat next to her ?
i cant really rmb .
oh , and vanessa didnt tie her hair .
and the other thing is chao cheng wore a green shirt ?
lols . vague details . not in the mood .
i even needed to force food down my throat .
it's how terrible the condition i was in during dinner .
the food = my fave veggie . gosh .
and i must say , the shade of green is simply sweet .
i love it .

mum and dad is not back yet .
i wonder when will they be back .
and i really need to bash myself .
i forgot to feed the fishies .
sorry fishes , i didnt mean to starve you .
and i didnt revise .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

saturday . lovely one , i must add .

2008-09-27T22:07:00.003+08:00

"we couldnt change it even we try ."

it's wrong .

we can change, even if it it's just a tiny change .

it counts . and it might affect the outcome .

ola .
it's night time now .
today , i meant last night , i couldnt really sleep well .
and yeah , i was exhausted this morning .
but then , strangely , i managed to crawl out of bed ,
make my way to the balcony ,
excluding some stubles here and there ,
and pressed the on button .
dump the clothes in , add in the detergent .
pull down the cover , adjust some settings .
one more click .
hoorays , the clothes are spinning in the machine .
weirdd huh .
okays , that because i dont wna
suffer the wrath of iris .
yeah , once you went thru it , you will be shuddering in fear .
she is terrifying , that fact doesnt change as she grows .

another thing i noticed today .
i'm good at exaggerating things .
'insert a wide grin here'
so , of course , you need to tell me if you want to hear the exaggerated version ,
or the true , original version .
'smiles' otherwise i'll always give you the exaggerated one .
because i can hone my skills . and of course ,
try to gauge people reactions and make them believable .

and i'm starting to love myself more .
idk why , but i'm telling myself ,
i dont sux , i'm good .
i'm not dumb , i'm a owner of an average brain which might get more
intelligent in the near future .
the point is , i'm improving my self confidence .
but of course, i wont let it go over board .
and yeah , i know what you are thinking of right now .
'are you sure you wont go overboard ? you already sound like
you are clouded in your fantasies of yourself '
i assured you , i know what i'm doing .
hee .
idk why some peeps keep looking down on themselves .
oh , 'i'm ugly' ; 'i'm dumb' ; etc .
yeah , those two are the most common i hear .
and another , 'she's better than me . dont compare me with her .'
why ?
learn to look at your good points .
if i didnt , i would be wallowing in self pity .
look at yourself .
you are not deform in any manner .
you didnt catch any terminal diseases .
think about those who had them .
they are the ones who are really suffering .
so think about that today .
are you really in a bad situation ?
what caused it ?
can you change it ?
what can you do to change it ?
someone asked me when i was young .
or it's either i read it somewhere .
it changed my life . it was etched into my brain .
as i grew older , i begun to understand the meaning of those words .
read between the lines .
i applied them , and here , i changed myself .
i was an anti social kid that just kept to herself .
i only made a friend because i thot , i might need one for project work .
but as she gets more friend , i drifted away from her .
i was friendless .
it was only when i am in p3 that i realised what i dire situation i was in .
i decided , i needed friends .
by p4 , i gotten myself a wee bit more friends .
but i was still shy .
and then , time flies , it was p6 .
i made friends , yes , but i wasnt close to them .
i kept jumping from group to group because we didnt click well .
until i found them , they were somehow my friends that i was able to communicate to .
they increased my self confidence , and i had influence on them ,
we were great buddies .
but that shattered when we graduated .
now , i couldnt really rmb the other friends i had except them .
yeah . and another thing is that i only speak to girls .
yup , i'm still bit uncomfortable with guys .
and of course , i'll speak to them when it is really necessary .
and when , that 'cold' voice as i defined comes in .
but when i speak to girls , my voice goes back to my normal one .
or the one that i considered normal .
strange , i know . but thats me . and i accepted my weirdness .
i even embraced it with love . hehs .
so well , i dont speak to guys .
even if they sit next to me .
but of course , there will be exceptions if they attempted to speak to me .
but who knows , i'm a hard shell to crack .
you wont know what i am thinking , what i am planning .
because i'm gna reveal to you , my brain never stops working .
even when i'm sleeping , they functions well and yeah , my brain doesnt take a break .
but then , who will be the one that can really sees me ?
of course , the first girl will be rena .
(:
but who will be the second ? and the first guy ?
the latter is rather impossible for the next few years .
(:
btu i wont rule out the possiblity .
it's 0.(insert plenty of 0 here)1 % .
hee .

that concludes my post for today !
seems that i'm revealing my character more ..
hmm..

'youve left me deeply intoxicated' will only go when i get over that
crush .
feel free to give me a helping hand .
be it a guy or girl .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

friday .

2008-09-26T16:05:00.001+08:00

tears started to swell up in my eyes, but they never fell .
i let out a groan and her hands went up and slid between my hair.
clutching them tightly, i breathed in deeply.
"Why do you have to force me?" those words escaped from my mouth , dancing in the air.
she just dont understand . i told her not to buy food for me since i already eaten .
but she had to buy for me.
it was always like this. she always forced me to eat.
whenever i go overseas with her without my parents, she had to make sure
i eat until i get the urge to puke .
does she not get it at all, sweetie? i explained to her so many time. i've lost count already.
i should have left for bb. in that case , i wont need to suffer . my stomach wont burst due to the overdosage of food. i wanted to swear at her , to tell her to fuck off and stop caring about me . i wanted to , but she was my granny. i cant do that to her . it betrays all my morals that i built all over the years.

i know, i understand how you are feeling right now. but you got to understand , she's old. she tend to be forgetful. or she just think that you might be hungry later. like youve said, she's your granny. learn to understand her, regii , and life will be easier . i know at bb , you'll have an easy life because ah e and uncle dont force you to eat . plus the quality of food is definitely betta . hush , alright . just accept it and finish it . you cannot reject it because she will be eating what you rejected . and it will make you look bad . alright , nto only about that , but it will be like , she eat leftover food . it makes her even more , pardon for the word , pathetic . and you know it . so you gotta finish it .

maybe you are right , sweetie . yeah , i'll finish that . i promise . and it really doesnt taste nice . =x oh , and thanks to you , i'll never do anything silly .

your 'silly' is a wide range . but it's good , i'm glad for it , regii .

friday (:

2008-09-26T13:41:00.002+08:00

time is the true test of your feelings ,

and it is always so tough to pass .

ola .
today is a great day .
hee .
i managed to make it thru the night without waking up .
wows .
okay, i meant i wake up once .
but thats because of a sms !

ah fuck .
my granny keep forcing me to eat fruits .

that sms , after i click it i went back to sleep !
ohmigosh , i finally had a good night sleep after a few days
of waking up at night .
px oso had the same probs as me .
lols .
oh , that sms .
about not wishing happy birthday .
lols .
i replied that in the morning even though i saw it at night
=/
oh , and i really love green tea (:
they taste so good .
delicious .
anyone love them as much as me ?
i cant seem to find anyone that share the same passion
for green tea .

we finished the movie for english lesson today .
i liked the ending .
it's great .
and science lesson sux .
i ha... i mean dislike that teacher .
and the paper , zzz .
worse still , she came to relief us for hist as well .
argh .

hmm , and math lessons .
interesting .
and a wksht to finish .
zz .
idk how to do it .
but i'm sure i'll manage .
and well , the whole incident concerning
someone apologizing to another party .
samantha is just always so amazing .
i'm wondering if she's the root of all their troubles .
hmmm ..
and she just wants to continue to interfere .
hais .

i'm planning to make a trip to bugis before next friday .
yeah , i know it's exam period .
but i gotta make a trip there !
otherwise i wont be taking my exams .
i'm going there to buy pen .
yep , they're super nice to use .
if anyone wants to try it , just tell me and i'll loan you my pen (:
i bought one for atika as well .
she liked it (:
hee .
and i loved it .
it's wonderful .

oh , and my insert from a conversation where i needed
to describe .

you sat next to her on the steps . she leaned on your shouldher and asked, "What should we do about this?" you remained silent, pondering on her question before finally saying, "I dont know." there was silence , but it was the comfortable one . you turned and look at her. she leaned against you and closed her eyes . you smiled and thought, she's just so sweet. then , you planted a kiss on her forehead and smiled to yourself . at this point , your friend rushes in and glared at you. you froze, and started to panic . what will he do to her, you must be thinking . he moved towards you, and you quickly woke her up. "Run," you whispered into her ear before forcing a small smile and gave her a gentle push away from you . she did not want to , but you knew it was for the best . she left , and promised that she will look for help. your friend reached you and looked at you with an evil gleam in his eyes . "oh no, " you muttered.

how good is it ?
maybe if it's okay , i shall insert it
into a story .
with editing , of course .

oh , and any orders for the pen ?
i have the pencil as well .
i'll be going to purchase them next tues .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

thursday :(

2008-09-25T18:51:00.002+08:00

when she walks , her head will sway

towards the

left , then right , and left again , right ...

the sequence goes on ,

and yeah , you get my point .

gods .
today is a terrible day for me .
to mark the beginning , i got hit by the bball .
fuck .
it's damn freaking pain .
and yeah , right on my face .
wtf , and it even made my specs bent slightly .
yeah , i know i'm making a big fuss out of my specs ,
but it's like , if i cant see clearly , then my mood will be going
downhill .
my right cheek still hurt slightly .
=x

and then , the main event that made the whole day worse .
my parents went overseas and left only granny and i
at home .
till sunday .
damn .
i'm scared .
=/
and lonely .
without iris , i'll be bored to tears .
but tmr night , i'll be following my neighbours to jb .
hee .
that made things slightly betta .
on the bright side , i could do anything i want until sunday .
cheers for me ?
arghs .
nvm , i should accept that fact gracefully and
embrace it tightly .
after all , it had been a long time since iris went on trips .
my parents went on a few trips this year already .
so .. yeah . .
haahaa .
okays , i'm getting over it .
and i promise myself .
i'll sleep well tonight .
there's nothing to be afraid of , regii .
you can always seek solitude by using the com ,
or watching those movies you layed out .
hee .

currently listening to a album that i dl .
tm revolution .
lols .
rather ok , but i guess i prefer uverworld and the gazette .
lols .

lets talk about math .
hahaa .
today , lets just say miss lim is quite ok .
hmm , this song sounds good . track 3 .
she asked peeps to go up the whiteboard to write out the answer .
i feared that tomorrow it will be my turn .
and idk how to do qn 6 .
=x
hopes she ask me for 5 or 7 .
at least i got the answer .
and hmm .. i should complete 5b from shurong .
otherwise l8r cher ask me go up write den gg liao .
=/

well , thats all for today .
and one note ; stoke up on eclipse .
i simply love that candy .
=/
more than choco .
hees .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

Silvestro Academy !

2008-09-24T20:35:00.003+08:00

ohmigosh .

finally , after hours of hard work

and soul poured into the chapter .

i finally got it out .

wonderful right ?

yep , i know . i can hear your applause for me .

thanks loads, peeps !

here comes o7 ; upholding the tradition

zoom !

Alex smirked, “Little puppy, you’ve finally come and receive your orders. Well, well, look at yourself. You looked drenched. But perhaps, you need a change of clothes.”

The others around the table – Vin, Gages, Violet and Chloe – stifled a gasp. Chloe whispered to me, “Nathan, he’s going to ask her to…” I gave her a nod and said that I will do something about.

“You should start by taking off that…”

“Alexander?” I phrased it as a question, but there was authority behind it.

released next monday .

wednesday (:

2008-09-24T18:33:00.002+08:00

you dont know how much you

hurt (me) ,

change (me) ,

and

cheer (me) everyone .

ciao .
lols .
i went to play with the translation thingy .
ciao meant hello in italian .
and i thot it was kidna related to good bye
or see you
but ti turns out to be completely different ?
i checked two translator thank you .
so there shouldnt be a mistake here right ?
hee .

oh , i'm currently typing out chapter 7 .
hais .
tiring job since i made it more lengthy .
lets say , maybe i can hit 2k ?
at least 1.5k words .
cuz now, i've stopped at 1478 words .
hee.

i couldnt finish my math hmwk .
why ?
because idk how to do .
starting from qn 5 ,
=/
need to copy tmr ler .

the hist lesson today is rather nice .
haha .
but my group didnt win cuz i put something wrongly .
=/
nvm barhs . after all , it's already over .
haaha .
and now , i'm wondering what the prize might be ?
lols .
and during hmt ,
it's like 'wow '
miss sim actually let us do out own stuffs provided that
we dont have any 'guang bo dian tai' otherwise
she will stop all our activities immeidately ?
and no walking .
lol .
so nice of her (:
i get to do my math in skool .
hehs .

and the movie that miss nora played during english .
it's damn weird ?
and well , that guy , dewey finn or smth liddat ?
i cant really rmb what i wrote for my plot thingy .
the actions that he did was so exaggerated .
==''
and humairah was commenting that .
hahaa .
and it seemed that humairah and i .
are getting on betta terms ?
(:
it's good then .
hee .

rena was pleasant today .
bit weird , but it's betta than being moody !
smile , rena .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

tuesday (:

2008-09-23T16:46:00.002+08:00

not much people share the same views

yours truly over here .

ola .
aunt just brought a omelette thingy over .
ate it , and well , it's yummy .
and today , aunt landy and and aunt nicole went back to tw .
woots .
i got my room back to myself again .

and seek does sounds quite nice .
i like it .
they rocks .
hee .
high and mighty colours !

i'll use cheerfulness to hide everything .
isnt it betta ?
if there's no one worrying about you
when you have troubles .
i dont want to worry anyone when i'm upset or down .
so i'll just keep them away .
and lock them inside me .
they can only be released when i am alone .
yep .
no one should be able to see a uncheerful me from today onwards .
(:
smile .
even if it's not for myself , i'll smile for those around me .
because i care .

today , rena was kinda sad ?
dang .
she's like , so off today .
when i speak to her .
she snapped at me when i asked whats her asnwer ?
o.o
she dont usually do that .
plus , i only asked that for the second time ?
==''
and me , i'm like a lunatic .
i'm smiling to myself when i was walking home tgt with her
while she was sulking ?
she wont be seeing this post anw .
not that i'm badmouthing her .
am i ?
nah , i'm just commenting on her mood .
hee .

and shurong, stay cheerful ! .
(:

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

2008-09-22T15:39:00.002+08:00

another update for Silvestro .

chapter 5 is up .

just some extract from it so that i can lure you to read it .

it's at my links there .

the only link that's moving ?

i guess you should be able to catch it .

it's called .

regi.rena.fp

hee .

here it comes .

whoosh !

When she finally spotted the guys, she grinned, “Nate, my love,” before rushing over and gave him another of her hugs. Nathan hugged her back with the same passion and smiled into her hair. It still had the same strawberry smell. “And who might this hot gentleman here be?” Reiya asked as she eyed Gavin as if he was a piece of eye candy. Gavin blushed under her scrutiny, which something Nathan found strange considering the fact that he did not blush that easily.

“Ri, he is a human not a prey. He is Gavin, Vin, Roberts, the one that I always talk to you about. He’s a good boyfriend material, you know,” Nathan grinned at Reiya before introducing Reiya to Gavin. Humour was evident on his face as Gavin smiled shyly.

“I know that, love,” she collected her schedule and linked her arms with Nathan, “It’s the ranking ceremony time.”

mondayy (:

2008-09-22T15:25:00.002+08:00

i'm a human .

just that i choose to focus on one emotion over the others .

ola .
today , i'm kinda moody ?
well , thats in the earlier part the day .
hmm .
not that early .
around 12 + ?
then , i killed sadness and happiness returned .
hee .
so . i'm happy now .
yeah , it's rare for me to be upset the whole day .
or at least , more than 4 hours .
(:
being naturally cheerful is great .
but at least i'm a human , not a happy machine .
because there are moments that i'll feel down .
it's a good thing actually .

hmm . lets blog about ytd .
yeah , ytd sucks .
why ?
because my relatives are over here .
yep , i dont fancy my relatives .
i'll cut all my ties with them when i have the chance to ,
the chance will come when i'm old enough .
and when my parents are in heaven .
i'm not cursing them .
i love my and dad very much .
i value them , soemtimes even above my own life .
yep , they brought me up well .
oh , where did i stop ?
ah , severing the ties .
yeah , they are completely .. not like me ?
i mean , i didnt even speak to my cousins ?
wtf .
there's nothing to talk about .
even when they are like , only less than 20 ?
and maybe one or two hit 20 already .
==''
and i cant believe that i can talk to sindd and bear normally ?
even though they are 23 ?
and thomas , patrick and hubert when
two is 30 and above , and one is nearing thirty ?
==''
damn .
it just proves one point .
i'm not close with them .
i love my gan parents and family at bb more than my
blood related relatives .
oh , and there are a few of my relatives which i wont sever ties with .
cuz they're nice .
mainly , my gu ma , third uncle and youngest aunt .
yes , i'm basically pin pointing to a aunt .
ehhs .
i betta go remove my blog link at msn pm .
otherwise they check .
den i die liao .
wait till a few more days , then i put it back there .
hmm .. so the topic for today is ..
sour relations with relatives ?
hee .

oh , and patrick's wedding with ally is on 17'10'08 .
woots .
i cant wait .
(:
i might even get some nice pics on that day ?
lols .

and belated birthday to samantha and atika .
lets just say i completely forgotten about it until today ?
well, last weekend was hectic .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

sunday !

2008-09-21T18:15:00.003+08:00

ola .
it's sunday today .
anything interesting planned ?
well , today at my house , there's buffet !
yup , it's still on . and it taste great ,
i'm not lying , it really taste good .
well , you can still come now .
since there's still food left .
the portion ordered were too large .
we cant finish it .

oh , and i think my badminton skills improved .
this morning ,
i went to practice with rena .
it's quite fun .
well , definitely . since i spent less time
picking up the shuttlecock .
><

now , they're going to collect the cake .
hmm .. i wonder if it wil be nice .
and yeah , she smsed me .
i hope she's alrights .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

saturday ; 1615

2008-09-19T19:47:00.007+08:00

you just kept on repeating .

lols .
i changed the skin again .
lols .
it's kinda nice .
(:
oh , and today , i kept on getting the error .
your request cannot be processed .
please try again .
thing .
zzz .
maybe thats why the time for my post went haywired ?
it's only 4+ and i post ard 7 ?
unbelievable .
oh. plus i added the snowflakes .
i just love them so much .
and i finshed typing chapter 5 .
and i'm working on my winter castle chapter 1 .
the name is so weird .
but it's just temp .
will be changed in the future .
hahaaa .
recently , post has been getting shorter .
actually, it only started from today .
it might be due to the fact that i did nothing today ?
expect to sleep in late till 11.30 .
hahaa .
i suddenly thot of the other two people
whom i know shared the same name as me .
it feels good to know someoen else
who bear the same name as you !

oh , and i think i'm gna let it go .
yes , but i will still be intoxicated by him .
and that's right .
love is a drug .
once you started , you will get addicted to it .
onyl when you can find a cure then you will feel at ease .
for me , i found my cure, but it's unreachable .
but still , i'm on the recovery path .
because i'm getting over the addiction .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

saturdayy .

2008-09-19T19:47:00.006+08:00

" but , why is it me ?
why cant it be someone else ? "

i had a strange dream today .
it's really weirdd .
and till now , i can still remember it .
i dont usually remember my dreams ,
but this one was strangely clear .
maybe thats what i've been trying to tell myself .
pen out thsi story , and see how well it can get .
it might be really good .
given by the fact that i do have wonderful dreams .
and they inspired me to write .
(:

today , i gotta work on my chapter 5 .
it'll be out next monday ya .
hee .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

friday (:

2008-09-19T19:47:00.005+08:00

youre my angel .

but you arent aware of it .

lols .

you're wondering why it's still the same ?

cuz i got so sick of the wrong codes that i decided .

might as well use this one .

hais .

until i'm in a betta mood , then i'll attempt again .

then , i changed the song again .

a random one .

found it at imeen ,

den when i went to check more info about it .

found out that it was a song from

another cinderella story .

lols .

starring selena gomez and drews seeley .

hahaa .

well , yeah , it seemed interesting .

so i'm gna find a way to watch it .

and it's released just a few days ago ?

lol .

now , i'm thinking of the next theme

i think i'll stick to bleach first .

cuz the winter themes simply hate me .

i always tend to mess up the codes .

and it's strange .

==''

i dont get the place where i messed it up ?

oh , and i totally forgotten about Silvestro .

damn .

i'm gna type the chapter out tomorrow ?

lets hope i will .

youve left me deeply intoxicated ; regii .

fridayy .

2008-09-19T19:47:00.002+08:00

god .
after applying this skin .
i find it so weirdd !
argh .
i'm gna change it again when i'm free .
now i need to shower .
just a quick post to remind myself to change it .
and i cant see my previous post ,
lols .

regii .

thursdayy // 18'09'08

2008-09-18T15:11:00.008+08:00

look at this !
it's the pineapple tart .
hee .
i havent try it yet .
but i'm sure it will be as nice
as the previous ones i eaten .
(:

oh , and look at this .

the insides ..
ah !

the contents !

i eaten it , and well , it's yummy .

peanuts ?

you dont need me to elaborate on it .

but it's nice , even though i dont love peanuts .

they all just alighted from the plane from taiwan less then

24 hours ago .

so they're extremely fresh !

hee .

THURSDAY !

2008-09-18T15:11:00.006+08:00

there's no way that you'll be ignored .

because i'll be there for you .

okays , today i'm officially
off .
everything went wrong .
not as in the normal wrong .
it's like , i'm overly happy ?
overly touchy ?
yeah , everything is a little bit too 'over' .
idk why .
lols .
at least i'm not sad (:
i think when i got home ,
i was even more happy .
hee .

hmm , the only thing i remember today is
chinese lessons , i passed my gong han !
woots !
i cant believe it !

and another conclusion i came to today :
i dislike PE !
yes , very intense dislike .
i was just strolling the field .
occasionals kicks of the ball ,
and nothing more .

oh , and rena and i is having a debate now .
on a lot of random stuffs .

x
x
x

rena ; i believe that there's no afterlife after we die
regii ; hmm . well , then i'll come back as a ghost then . (:
rena ; there's no ghost .
regii ; well , thats your belief .
rena ; when we die , our brain stop functioning , that means our emotions , personality is gone .
regii ; you know whats the word , supernatural invented for ? people like me .
rena ; it's just a fantasy .

x
x
x

and one comment she said .
rena ; you thrive on my unhappiness .
regii ; YEAH ! I KNOW I KNOW ! AND I'M LOVIN' IT .
rena ; you're the sadist .

lols .
anw , if anyone wants the full conversation ,
feel free to leave a msg in the cbox .
(:

i'm a bug that thrive on sadness (from rena) and convert it to happiness for myself ; regii .

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

2008-09-18T15:11:00.002+08:00

Silvestro Academy ; Verde .

Sometimes, it is not possible to be a wallflower when you are one of the four special scholarship students. To top it off, you are attracted to the king and vice versa. Inspired by Ouran Host Club, Hana Yori Dango and Shinsei Doumei Cross .

ohmigosh . 4 reviews !
yeah , i know it's just mere four ,
but then , it's only up 2 days !
oh , and got several people favourited us
and story alert us
and fave author us .
hahaa .
happiness is overflowing now .
grab a nice container and scoop some up now !

smile smile smile ; regii .

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

2008-09-17T20:09:00.003+08:00

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

oh yes , oh yes , oh yes !
i got my very first review !
ohmigosh .
it's on chapter 1 . hee .
but anw , the other 3 chapters are out .
and rena , did you check the hits ?
(:
and one last update , anonymous reviews are accepted .

overly excited ; regii .

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

2008-09-17T15:30:00.011+08:00

Silvestro Academy ; Verde

just a quick update on a story written together

by rena and i .

Silvestro AcaDemy ; Verde .

check it out .

linked from my blog below the literature .

tks , and remember to review (:

lotsa love ; regii .

wednesdayy // 17'09'08

2008-09-17T15:30:00.006+08:00

so wont you please play a song , your sentimental song ,

for my sentimental friend over there .

bring the tears to her eyes ,

help to make her realise ,

the love we had was just beyond .

then if the time is right ,

maybe i'll hold her tight ,

my sentimental friend over there .

i'm home .

and i'm having no life .

i just like , post awhile ago ,

but i'm back here again .

no choice , because if i dont say it now .

i'll forget it later .

haha .

i was gna comment on the couple i saw below rena's block .

and i was thinking ,

get a more private location , peeps ,

when i remembered .

i actually did that in the past .

eww .

i cant believe it .

==''

i'm not gna sit under a block next time .

but of course , that wont be happening soon .

oh , and rena's dog .

the ah joe .

damn freaking noisy !

i dont really like noisy dogs that bark when anyone gets near them .

i honestly dont like them in this manner .

when that dog keeps its mouth shut ,

it's more likable .

haha .

and rena had her hair up in a nice manner .

but i dont see her tying that to school .

maybe she find it too informal .

but her hair , is messy .

sometimes , even messier than mine .

okays , i'm gna stop . because i want people to read

the previous post .

go read it !

i think i'm liking orange .

obsession is part of me ; regii .

wednesday (:

2008-09-17T15:30:00.002+08:00

帮人的过程中，

也是一种学习，美德，以及享受。

wheee .

it's hard to find a day where i'll be upset .

okay , but then , it's also rather easy to find a moment

where i'll be feeling down .

but then , i will definitely cheer up quickly .

todayy.. hmm.. let me think..

yeah , we started with math .

miss lim is just , ehs , like usual ?

ah , she checked out nails and socks length .

dang , what teacher ask her student to stand up , put your

palm flat against the table , and look at your socks length when

she pass by you ?

apparently , the only teacher who did that was miss lim .

maybe not , but then , she's the first that did that to me .

and well , when i bent my knee to pull up my socks .

guess what happened ?

my shoe slipped out from my feet .

thank god no one sees it .

but yeah , when i told atika , she was having a look that said ,

wtf , your shoe dropped ?

that's about it .

the most interesting thing that happened to me today .

and first conclusion i came to .

miss lim mood will be betta after scolding her students .

then , it was art .

hais .

art lessons nowadays are boring .

and i cant believe that i'm saying that .

but hey , ac activities rocks .

at least we do more interesting stuffs .

hee .

then , it's english .

we had that stupid compo thingy .

it's that i dont like composition ,

instead , i love them because they are the ones that

i score well at .

english is boring .

english lessons with miss noras is defnitely boring .

my second conclusion for today .

oh , and i was doodling my name on the paper .

who doesnt love my name , seriously ?

it rocks .

and i'm sure all the other reginas out there love their name too .

when i'm boredd , or moody ,

i'll write them out .

or when i'm feeling so in love with myself .

is it healthy , anyways ?

initially , i started off with the feeling of boredom ,

but when i started on the second 'regina' ,

i was half bored and half loving my name .

by the third , i'm already obsessed with it .

i feel that this is getting so unhealthy .

but it makes me happy , so scratch that unhealthy part .

hee .

recess !

i did all the typical stuff .

eat , chat and write .

maybe writing is not so typical .

but then , today i'm having a

afraid-to-be-around-too-many-people phobia .

idk why .

so yeah , if i accidentally hurt anyone's feeling

when i abruptly stood up and move to the blue table just

beside , dont take it to heart .

and there's another point of bringing my

pencil case and jotter book to recess everyday .

so that i can dump them on the two tables ,

the blue and yellow ones ,

and no one will seat there because it had been

taken by yours truly .

people should know by now that we love sitting there !

we as in

1. REGINA !

2. Serena .

3. Melissa .

4. Jo Ann .

5. Zhen .

6. Priya .

7. Samantha ?

hahas . occasionally , there will be more people .

but that's not very often .

anyone is welcomed to join us !

hee .

thennnnn !

we have hmt .

and wow .

i like miss sim this way .

she was so forgetful .

hee .

it's like , when she's in the middle of saying something ,

and students cut her off by asking her a random question ,

she will answer and then , she will forget about what she's planning

to tell us , isnt that so great ?

she might forget the assignments that she wanted to

give us , so we can skive off .

hee .

lovely .

now , for Silvestro Academy update .

i cant upload it .

why ?

because the time over there is the pacific region

or smth liddat .

i checked .

it should be GMT-08:00 .

aww .

and our time is GMT +08:00 .

yeah , if my GMT thingy is not wrongly noted ,

and my calculations are right ,

then i can only upload them at 12 noon tomorrow .

and i'm still in school .

so..

i can only upload by 4pm tomorrow .

i have lessons till 2 , and i need to take bus home .

then , i'll on my computer immediately .

provided that no one is using mine .

but if my computer is used , then i'll use the other one outside .

i saved the documents in my thumbdrive !

<3>

hee .

and thanks to iris for buying it for me .

but of course , i can give you guys a little preview on my chapter 3 .

hee . and rena is not gonna know it .

because she dont read my blog .

haha .

I raised an eyebrow, “There are slaves?”

He nodded and I grinned, “This is gonna be so fun, Vin.”

He laughed, “Yeah, and when you’re in the school, you will be back into the Ice Prince mode. I really hate that.”

I relaxed into the car seat, “I know, but perhaps, maybe the temperature will decrease and the Ice Prince might suffer a meltdown. But the Academy is located high up at the mountain where it will be quite chilly, so it will be rather tough to melt.” I had a thoughtful expression on the face before I continue, “I’ll strive for the king status so that I can get the advantages, then when I’m not under the spotlight I can be myself without revealing my character to the others.”

“Very wise, Greco,” he snickered.

“Keep your eyes on the road, Roberts. I treasure my life.”

i love myself ; regii .

tuesday (:

2008-09-16T18:06:00.002+08:00

Kimi wo ai shitsuzukeru

let's get on .

make a wish , smile come in to your lips .

make your wish , as sweet as your love .

today is a wonderful day !

somehow , now it seemed that everyday is wonderful .

idk why .

maybe it's due to the EOY that are making me loony ?

lols .

anw , i'm starting to type Silvestro Academy ; Verde in my computer .

now, i'm at o3 , but i decided that it's kinda boring .

so i decided to blog .

oh , and i need to confess something .

regina , i'm guilty of not replying to your email !

i saw it days ago , but i did not bother to open it .

i'll try to reply tomorrow .

hee .

basically , today during hcube i was slightly off .

maybe because of some tiredness ?

no matter what time i sleep , i'll always be tiredd .

and well , somehow today my right eye feel sore .

but after math it feels okay .

i wonder why.. maybe seeing ms lim does help .

speaking of her , she's terrifying today .

thank god i copied .

but hey , when she explained it , i listened and understood

how to do the sums .

and i know copying is not a healthy habit , but at least i attempted

them ytd night .

oh , and headaches .

what are they exactly ?

idk if i ever experience them before , but it seems like

that headache buggy is spreading it's population rather quickly .

today , dance lesson were horrid .

that dance , yeah , simple to learn but it's weirdd .

i prefer those tough ones .

at least when we make mistakes , cher will understand .

and whole fiasco is really ..

let me think of a word to describe it ..

weird ? strange ?

idk .

but i know that it's definitely unpleasant .

ah , i shall not comment any more .

i guess i should go on with my o3 .

maybe , i should send some specially selected people and let me

have a sneak preview of it .

hee .

one thing to note , the book version and the online version

is way too different .

why ?

because i kinda edited half of o3 .

yeah .

thats why , you gotta read the online version .

i assure you , it's definitely betta than the book one .

so if you've read the book version and you're finding it nice ,

read the online version .

on wednesday , four chapters will be up .

i'll coax renaa into uploading four of them .

hee .

zoom zoom ZOOM ! ; regii .

mondayy // 15'09'08

2008-09-15T17:32:00.002+08:00

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

i'm on the right

path .

lalala~
lols .
noe i'm listening one love til this part .
the song is quite nice eh ?
i simply love it .
hee .
oh , and rena and i finally came to a conclusion .
we'll post our story on fictionpress .
i'll link it later .
now , i'm eating crispy fried chicken .
heh . it's simply wonderful .
i'm thinking that maybe later , i should add more songs on the
playlist ?
or maybe not ..

today , i went for the chinese test .
okays , lets just say , i cfm pass .
why ?
thats because i cheated a little .
=='' .
i'm still trying to defend myself , i know .
i jsut forget around 2 or 3 words and i referred to
the list .
><
yesh , it's cheating already .
hais .
but if i dont , i might fail again ?
anw , i saw some other people doing the same stuffs as me .
looks like not everyone is honest .
=x
you cant blame us for wanting to pass to desperately .

oh , and back to my story ,
i gotta think of a summary for it .
-
Craved by many , sought by many , but rejected by the Academy .
All 40 candidates were all handpicked by the director of the Academy herself .
During this autumn , the destiny of the two special students shall entwine .
-
how does it sound ?
like those typical summary you can get .
zz .
let me go and squeeze all the brain juices out now .
-
He's the king; She's the slave; Silvestro Academy is it's name; Mt. Carmine is the location;
-
ah , i cant think anymore .
geez .
anw , i have yet to shower .
=/

it's etched into my tree of remembrance ; regii .

sundayy // 14'09'08

2008-09-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

you're the only one

that i dont have the courage to

speak to .

woots .

i'm homeee !

okays , let me clarify a fact first .

i'm not gone for a trip this weekend ,

wait .

it's kinda like a trip .

lols .

okay , what am i talking about ?

i mean typing actually .

this weekend , i'm at bb .

now , i know you have a question tugging

inside your head right now .

heh .

i'm a genius .

what is bb ?

bukit batok .

hahaa . doubt you thought of that .

weekend at bb seriously rocks .

no mum , no dad .

only me and my gan family .

okay , we went thru that ritual thingy to make

us 'related' .

and i can say proudly , i love them more than

i love my relative .

i dont even love my relatives .

it's already great that i dont hate them .

my relatives sucks to the core .

once you meet them , you will know it .

back to the topic of life at bb .

it's really , relaxing .

i could just slack the whole day .

but then , the only disadvantage is that the usage

of computer is slightly tougher .

otherwise i could have blogged ytd .

hmm , the owner the computer ,

hubert , has passwords . ==''

it's troublesome to ask .

and another thing is that his computer is slow ,

compared to mine .

i know i praise my computer till an extend

that people cannot stand it .

but you know , i'm seriously attached to it .

my lovely computer .

muackies .

oh , and i get to watch those

cable channels there the whole day without

restrictions .

hahaa .

and gods , i seriously love the history channel .

it rocks .

so many fantastic stuffs there .

love it .

next time , when i having a good career ,

i'll definitely subscribe those cable channels for my parents .

hee .

i'm a filial kid .

that about all i did this weekend .

oh , and i cleared one of the books i loaned ,

and i'm starting on the shakesphere's plays .

god knows if i can finish it .

i totally skipped the introduction part and

moved on straight to the plays .

hope i can understand it .

hee .

my computer my life ; regii .

fridayy // 12'09'08

2008-09-12T16:42:00.002+08:00

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

my rainbowrific future without you .

you're only part of my past ,

my memory ,

and never will you be the future .

just had dinner .

lols .

mum fried the popcorn chicken she

bought .

it's nice .

hahaaa .

somehow , it taste like kfc de .

lols .

the seller must be really good at making

these stuffs .

ahh .

l8r i'll need to go to the library with renaa .

kinda feeling lazy now .

and tiredd .

oh , and i didnt sleep just now .

zzzz .

perhaps , maybe watching anime will

be betta than reading stories online ?

lols .

anw , i guess i'll sms her now .

no regrets ; regina .

fridayy // 12'09'08

2008-09-12T14:12:00.002+08:00

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

do you remember me ?

it's sad if you dont .

but i'll be glad if you answered a simple yes .

hais .

miss sim didnt come .

how can she ?

i studied so hard , and then ,

they just came and told me ,

she didnt come .

i know it's a fact i should stop dwelling on it .

but i cant .

because of that test , i lost at least 3 hours of sleep .

and did i even mention that i really ,

really need to sleep ?

okay , it's a want plus need .

hee .

but five hours is definitely not enough for me .

want .

need .

what is a want ?

and what is a need ?

do you actually know the differences between them ?

a want is something you desire ,

and a need is soemthing that is necessary .

dont confuse your needs with your wants .

because it will blur your vision ,

and maybe , just maybe ,

you might just stray off the right track .

so from now on , understand what

you really need and want .

i smile because i want to , not because i need to ; regii .

thusdayy // 11'09'08

2008-09-11T18:37:00.002+08:00

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

and sometimes i wonder .

are you the reason that i cant bear to part with the keychain ?

or do i just simply love it so much ?

i'm so tiredd .

and i cant help but to dread tomorrow .

and i have yet to memorize the chinese .

but then , jia zhi guan is still in my head .

ah yeah , the bleach movie 2 ddr ost is

rather good .

simply great .

lols .

but i cant get the movie out of my mind .

especially when it's about hitsugaya .

lols .

okays , back to chinese .

todayy is shu yu time !

i'm so gna memorize it .

idk if samantha is going .

she doesnt seem that she want to go .

but next monday , it will be even more challenging .

no replacing of words , no hanyupinyin ,

it's tough . and you will need full mark .

so i must pass jia zhi guan tmr .

and hor , chelsea and yiting seemed to have memorized

the shu yu ler .

god save me , please .

ps ; day 3 .

i wont forget , but i will get over it ; regii .

wednesdayy // 10'09'08 .

2008-09-10T18:59:00.003+08:00

i just have something to say .
i'm seriously speechless .
==''
thats because of chinese .
argh /
you know what ?
i managed to memorise at least 16 just now during dinner .
and i can write them out so perfectly .
and today , i had so much time before chinese .
but i just cant memorise them .
argh .
okays , i'm so gna tackle jia zhi guan today .
i'll clear them .
and i swear i will pass them on friday .
i meant jia zhi guan .
well , if i failed shu yu ,
then on monday i'll have to write it word for word .
anw , shu yu , we already have to write it word for word .
so whats the difference ?
so it's more beneficial to study jia zhi guan .
c'mon regii !
you can do it !
it's just another 5 phrases more .
yeah , another 5 .
just 5 !
(:
-
during ac , it was.. fun ?
okays , we didnt much actually .
instead , the meeting occupied at least half of the time .
i didnt even manage to finish my poster .
ah , but then , i'll need to draw it again next week .
because the paper that i'm using right now ,
it definitely too filled with the pencil marks .
=/
ah yeah , i'm oso now in the publishing team !
woots .
and maybe tmr , i wna go for the CNB ler !
next year target : be the vp of ac ?
okays , if i cant make that , then at least i'll be the
admin , or secretary , or event ic .
there's oso an asst admin and event .
i'm gna aim for those next year .
hee .
well , it will be even betta if i can get to be the
chairperson .
lols .
too high hopes i guess .
-
i really wonder , i can be so active in ac , but not
in class ?
why ?
i'm still trying to figure out this problem .
oh , and i cant resist puting this .
hee .

youve left me deeply intoxicated .

i still keep the keychain that you gave me .

and i never once lost it .

it's always with me ,

by my side .

JYS ! ; regii .